-The Papaya Tree-

Ragging bullsh**

2011-12-02T17:42:00.006+08:00

I haven’t been writing for quite some time now and I think my writing is getting pretty rusty. Although a discussion during one of my dinner times at home prompted me to write about the issue of ragging/bully during orientation week.

I believe that at some point in life one may have experienced being ragged by others. Remember your mean seniors back in school or college? Who has never experienced things like ‘Orientation Week’? Orientation weeks are normally organized by seniors who are usually just a couple years older and typically act like they are the boss.. LMAO :P Sounds familiar?

Well one of I guess only two moments of ragging in my entire school life that I could remember was the one during matriculation. It wasn’t bad..I wasn’t forced into washing someone else’s clothes or anything..nothing like that.

It was 2004 and I believe I was the naïve girl who just finished her SPM and ready to set foot onto a new place called college (yay! schoolgirl no more!) Of course me and my bunch of friends were proud getting into this college called Labuan Matriculation College. And of course there was Orientation Week. It was held for 4-5 days (I could hardly remember it..it was years ago!). It was organized by probably a dozen university students whom I didn’t even acknowledge as seniors as they were no longer students at the college. They just came back to sort of ‘help’ with the organization of the orientation week ‘just for us’ newbies.

And guess what.. it was no surprise they acted like MONSTERS. They acted like they knew everything and showed us who the boss were and who the minions were. They forced us into wearing the same big-long-sleeved-thick-collared shirt that I could never even touch if I were given the choice. The worse of all, they forced us into wearing it every night for that damn five nights in a row! I couldn’t wash it because there was no way it was going to dry the next day. Imagine how smelly the shirt was! Imagine all of us about two thousand young boys and girls cramped in one hall that couldn’t even accommodate all of us! Everyone was sweaty, feeling uncomfortable and believe me most of us were swearing the whole nights. It was one of the most disgusting moments I’ve ever experienced. Seriously!

They also said things like “we are your senior, you should respect us”, “we tasted salt before you do we are older (and therefore wiser)” “Jangan berani melawan!” Bluek..All these saying really make me puke. I hate mean seniors..really. I mean what’s the point of showing arrogance towards the younger juniors?

Luckily I was offered a scholarship at a different college which thankfully treated me as a young adult who was eager to enter tertiary education. I left matriculation about one month later. Honestly, the experience during orientation week really gave me a bad first impression of the place. What a shame.

I thought, maybe they were treated that way when they were the juniors. So this was the only time they could revenge for all the abuses and Ill-treats they’ve received before. Though this is no excuse to act inappropriately. It’s such a shame because from what I see this has become a culture in schools, colleges and universities especially in Malaysia.

Orientation weeks are supposed to be the time for freshers to learn about the new school, the subjects that they are going to study, the town that they are going to live, where to go for prayers ..you know stuffs like that. But what’s happening here is that orientation week has become a time to be bullied?

During my university's years, Orientation Week was called Fresher’s Week. There were talks from lecturers about lecture schedules,modules, there were societies fair to get students to join different types of societies in the university, there were gatherings with students from different countries and they were parties every night! And you know what else the seniors/volunteers did? They even arranged free buses for students to go to IKEA at the nearest town in Bristol to buy pots and pans! Ragging? Bully? hmm never even heard anything about that.

These are the sort of activities that are supposed to be done during orientation week. The emotional state of someone who just enters a new place and probably the first time to be away from the comfort of home and family is usually unstable and in need of guidance. The purpose of orientation week is to ease one’s life and unquestionably not the time to be bullied.

It’s disheartening to see this happening and hopefully this wouldn't be a common culture amongst educational institutions in the country. And to those so-called ‘seniors’ at LMC who bullied us in 2004..I may laugh thinking about it now but you guys were and will always be the idiots bunch I remembered :P

xxx

It's really has been a while isn't it?

2010-12-11T15:25:00.006+08:00

Well hello again and it's December already!!!

I'm finally here again on this pretty-badly-abandoned page of mine.

Now how do I begin..

I have recently..about four months ago been posted to teach at a secondary school that is situated in the rural area. Before I begin, I am actually grateful now that I didn't get to sit down and write about it four months ago otherwise it would have been a ramble of regrets from my side.

Looking back at it, I could seriously laugh all about it :P I actually cried while talking to my family on the phone when I first reached the school. My first week had been nothing but thoughts on how to get myself out of the school. The first three weeks were all thoughts about how much I regretted getting myself into this profession, surrendering myself into what I called as The Wild. You know if you have watched the movie Into The Wild. In my recent years I've been sent to places far away from home where I got no one to rely on initially..somehow I survived without any tears. Ironically, now that I'm posted to my own state..I actually cried? Funny isn't it?

The thing is..I was never sent to a place in which basic needs are still difficult to get. Everything was there for me at my disposal. Food, electricity, clean water, transportation etc. And now.. I am teaching at a school that uses generator-set to generate electricity, uses gravity-water that comes out of the pipe as murky water, 30km of gravel road to go through to get to the school, 70 km from the nearest town and I'm assuming about 300km from my hometown Kuala Penyu. Now how does that sound?

It was hard at first for me to accept that I'm being sent to teach at this school. Now don't get me wrong I am no city girl. I am from the countryside too but still.. It was hard accepting it since I didn't expect it at all. I even thought about quitting but hey I can't quit I owe the Government half a million for that.

So, I just went through my days while trying my best to adapt to the place, to the school, getting to know other teachers (luckily I already knew two of them as they are from my hometown too) and also getting to know the students. I actually get to go back to my hometown or to KK every weekend so that has really helped me to rationalize my new situation.

I do admit I get bored at times because seriously there is not much to do there. I have no TV, there's no broadband signal, I have no car to get around. I brought books along to kill time and had actually finished reading six books within three months.

You know people always say that time cures all..After a while I've started to enjoy being there. I enjoyed teaching the students in the school. The little things my students do can sometimes really cracks me up but I do admit they can really be a pain in the ass. Well..what do I expect from these kids right? This is all what teachers in the world face everyday. They can really make my day or spoil it completely :P

The important thing is that i have finally adapted to my new surroundings. Though I still do complain about the old wooden house I'm staying now lol..hey snakes sneaked into the house three times already ok..so don't blame me for complaining =P

So this is where I am now. I am a teacher in a rural school. I don't know what's gonna happen next and I can't even see if I'm going to stay put in this school for long or not. I am also not sure if I am meant to be a teacher. For now, I shall just do what I'm suppose to do that is to teach with my very best effort :)

Till then..

p/s: going to start writing again after this..

xxx

Human Chemistry

2010-07-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

How far do you believe in the 'chemistry' between human beings?

I always wonder why sometimes I can easily talk to a person even the one I have just met.. even to the point in which I feel it's ok to share some secrets with.

On the other hand comes this other person whom I presume I have zero chemistry with in whatsoever manner. It just seems like I have nothing to talk to this person. I struggle to find those unnecessary small talks just to fill in the space in between conversation and then the moment of awkwardness creeps in.. urgh.. I hate it so much.

Do you face this situation?

Sometimes I admire those who are bubbly who always has something to say to make him/herself comfortable besides making those around him/her comfortable too. God bless these people!

It's the chemistry? right?

Sometimes some people just click..whilst some don't.

Or is it just me..you see I'm not the most friendly person :S

On another note..

a bit on my life update..I'm going to teach in Sabah..Yay!!

Only that I still have no idea which school I'm going to..or which part of Sabah I'm going to spend my few years in. Come 19th.. I shall know.

The thing about getting posted to Sabah is that (well including Sarawak) it is one huge state. Say from my place here in KP to Tawau for instance, it is comparable to the distance between Penang to Melaka or even Johor may be. While my friends from (Msia) Peninsular could rest assured in knowing the state they get posted to..the nerviness does not end there for my case. :(

Oh well..wherever the school may be.. It should be interesting no? :)

Till then..

xxx

Back home

2010-06-28T16:16:00.008+08:00

Hello..

I'm writing from home in Kuala Penyu. Home for over a week now. It's good to be back. To be able to breathe in less polluted air in my kampung as oppose to Penang's..and waiting for posting letter.. It's kinda nerve wracking not knowing where I'll be sent to...argh!!

Anyhow..On the day of my flight back to KK, I had with me two big suitcases, one printer and a big clothing bag to be checked in at the airport. I thought my total baggage weight would only exceed about 5kg from the 30kg allowances I bought. Instead everything exceeded by 25kg! So I had 55kg of baggage weight with me. Crazy isn't it. Luckily some of my friends who were there to send us off offered to help me post the stuffs instead as their flight home were two days after mine. So I gave up the printer and the clothing bag for them to be taken care of. So grateful for these friends :) If not I would've paid RM375 for the extra baggage. Sigh~

I'm not sure what junk have I collected in the past few months. Besides the two things I left behind for my friends to post, I have another four boxes which I have posted earlier. Well big and small boxes included. Still..I have loads of stuffs! I should stop buying clothes, bags and shoes..really. But it is somewhat compulsive to shop for these stuffs. I admit that I am seriously easily attracted to pretty clothes especially.. and shoes! I haven't even been able to unpack the four huge boxes I posted from UK since last year because I have nowhere to put them in my house and now I have more to come. Sigh~ (already double sighs in the post~)

Anyway..attention Sing Yeen, Yee Kee and Kim Hong and all the others who were involved in preparing, buying, writing wishes in the birthday card..

Thank you for the CARD and DRESS you guys bought me.. Hey all the messages on the 'clothes' hanging on the 'rail' are real cute! I love it~! You know it reminds me of the clothes rail at the backyard of 12 Argyle Terrace where we used to hang our clothes hehe..

Me lurve the bday card :)

and the dress too! I love it. You know first glance I thought it was some kind of sleepwear hehe..You know how you guys always give me that kinda 'stuff' lol. I took picture of me wearing it to show to you guys. Nice eh ~

The dress!

Oh by the way I had a session at the hairdresser last Thursday to straighten my hair. OMG it was a painful experience! I had patches of burnt scalp on my head. Well it wasn't that serious but it was really painful :( Everytime the hairdresser used the iron near my scalp she would hold it there for a few seconds and that was when the heat from the iron 'travelled' to my scalp. Very painful ok. I asked her if it's normal to feel so much heat and she said yes and asked me to tahan it. Omg does it really have to be that painful?? I'm gonna think twice before I want to go through that experience again. Btw..my straightened hair in the above pic.

Also, presenting Yan2 my niece who is 1 month close to 1 year old! Look how big she is now. Notice that 2nd pic of her watching TV? yeah she's a fan of the late MJ too..lol

Yanyan

All right..that's all for now..will do more updates.

xxx

KISSM

2010-06-03T21:49:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow will be the start of a two-week course called KISSM stands for Kursus Induksi Sistem Saraan Malaysia. Now, this course is compulsory for all civil servants in Malaysia. Some time or another, a civil servant in Malaysia will have to go through this course either you are already on your post or pre-post..like me.

In my case, I need to complete the course successfully as well as the SPP (Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Pelajaran) interview in order to be confirmed (pengesahan jawatan) as a PPPS which stands for Pegawai Perkhidmatan Pelajaran Siswazah which is equivalent to a graduate teacher. Only when one reaches this stage, he/she is eligible to get the graduate salary grade and all other allowances and benefits.

Now, who says becoming a teacher is easy huh~

During this course, we will attend lectures, seminars etc and we'll be exposed to EVERYTHING GOVERNMENT. From all the Dasar-dasar Kerajaan, Perbendaharaan Negara, Perintah-Perintah Am, Pekeliling, Pegurusan Harta etc2.. which I believe are must-know-things before you step on your foot into the 'Government realm' .

There will be individual and group assignments and also written exam on the last day. I guess this two weeks is going to be busy..

Wish me luck!

p/s: Flight home on June 2oth :)

xxx

Can't believe it's the end of the course!

2010-05-27T10:49:00.007+08:00

Hahahaha...

Has it been 10 months??

I have technically..finished KPLI!!! huhuhu

Months of somewhat ludicrous yet noteworthy moments..

and now..it's over!!

It seems like I'm moving on to another phase of life..

Hmm..anyhow..this is going to be a less talk/write post because it's going to be a picture post! collections of photos during my time here (year 2010) though I have not been taking that many since I came here..Becoming less vain perhaps? :P

Enjoy the pics! (in random order and events)

Sunset view from Holiday Inn Resort, Batu Feringghi (20/5/10)

Our trip to Tambun Lost World, Ipoh (8/5/10)

Trip won't be complete without the 'jumping pic'

Eat eat eat.. favorite activity in Penang

Me n coursemate with our Scout uniform

Our trip to Genting Highlands

n KL :)

Scout camp in Johor (oh this was last year)

CNY 2010..staying out the whole nite :D acting homeless and eating McD

Dangerous attempt taking picture in the middle of Penang bridge! You aren't suppose to stop your car here..

I guess that's all..

Notice that I have 'beautify' my blog with a new template?

Yeah..going to start blogging actively again.. after all..I should be less busy after this no?

Hmm.. (rolls eyes)

xxx

Bumiputera?

2010-05-14T13:27:00.015+08:00

Ok.

This might be a sensitive issue towards the country (will and always will be lol). I am still determine to write this.

Before I start, i need to make a quotation of Articles 153 of the Federal Constitution of Malaysia

Article 153 grants the Yang di-Pertuan Agong, or King of Malaysia, responsibility for safeguarding the special position of the Malay and other indigenous peoples of Malaysia, collectively referred to as Bumiputra and the legitimate interests of all the other communities. The article specifies how the King may protect the interest of these groups by establishing quotas for entry into the civil service, public scholarships andpublic education.

Originally there was no reference made to other indigenous peoples of Malaysia (then Malaya) such as the Orang Asli, but with the union of Malaya with Singapore, Sabah and Sarawak in 1963, the Constitution was amended so as to provide similar privileges for the indigenous peoples of East Malaysia (Sabah and Sarawak), grouping them with the Malays as Bumiputra.

So this is what happen:

Recently during a taklimat with the unit peperiksaan in my college, we were asked to check, alter if necessary and sign a form which contains our personal details. It is important as it will be used as a reference for our diploma transcript.

Details given were:

Nama, No. Kad Pengenalan, K and another detail I couldn't quite remember. All my Malay classmates got theirs written as B under the K column. Two of my chinese classmates and me were written C under the K column. So I thought K must be Keturunan so B-Bumiputera, C-Cina. So I altered mine with a red pen, from C to B. Well as far as I am concerned, I am a Bumiputera.

Then I saw another class's form in which the majority students in this class are natives Sabah. Most of theirs were written L under the K column. L? So..it means Lain-lain. Then I thought.. am I suppose to be under Lain-lain too? So I changed mine from B to L.

After a moment, the group of Sabahan friends changed theirs from L to B. Well again by right they are natives of Sabah so they are suppose to be Bumiputera.

I was confused @_@. Should it be B or L?

I went to clarify with the unit peperiksaan. Below was roughly the conversation:

Me : Cigku, ni yang K ni apa?

Mr M : Itu kaum

Me : Yang B ni?

Pn B : Itu Bumiputera, C tu Cina

Me : Saya Bumiputera, saya patut tukar ni pegi B ka?

Pn B : Kalau Bumiputera tukar B la

Me : Ok B la

(so i have changed from C to B to L to B =_=")

Then the friend from the other class passed up their form. I was still standing nearby and listened to her conversation with the unit peperiksaan.

Ms C : Ni kawan2 yang Sabahan tukar dari lain-lain (L) ke Bumiputera ye

(whilst showing a long list of altered information in red pen)

Mr Stupid : Eh ni yang dorang ni agama dorang apa ni?

Ms C : Ada yang kristian, ada yang ....

(tak habis cakap kena interupt)

Mr Stupid : Kalau kristian ni terus Lain-lain la. Die kalau Islam baru la Bumiputera, Cina memang cina la

Me : Eh, kenapa pula ikut agama? bukan ikut keturunan ka?

Mr Stupid : Bukan2. Ni list ni pun kami dapat dari BPG (Bahagian Pendidikan Guru) memang sistem die macam ni

Me : hmm.. ok

I was in no mood to argue because I felt it would be useless to talk to a person like him, who thinks that a bumiputera=islam.

People like Mr Stupid is an example of how unaware and unsensitive a person can be towards other people living in the SAME country as he is.

Now, my question is what is really bumiputera? If you are in peninsular Malaysia then maybe you are (almost) right to say bumiputera are all islam because of the Malays here. Then what about us natives of Sabah and Sarawak? Well it is understandable/acceptable if people got confused with me as I have a chinese name. But what about my other friends who are really purely indigenous? From the Article 153 which I quoted above, doesn't it clearly shows that indigenous people of Sabah & Sarawak are to be grouped as BUMIPUTRA? So why do we need to oblige to be called lain-lain all the times?

Sigh~

You know what I think, scrap all this Bumiputera status. If you really need to have Race to be put in forms, then let it all be either Malay, Chinese, Indian, Iban, Kadazan, Murut, Kedayan, Kayan, Brunei, Bisaya, Rungus,......or maybe Natives of Sabah, Natives of Sarawak. By right we are all Malaysians who should be treated fairly, equally regardless of religion and race.

If you want to talk about racial unity, the first thing the Gov needs to do is to stop classifying/grouping people. You should treat ALL equally. Plus this issue is already creating so much tension amongst the people. Just look at what happen in our country.

Sigh~

It's to no surprise why our parents always blame the Gov saying how Sabahans & Sarawakians have always been regarded as a '2nd class Bumiputera'.

Save us from all this trouble la.

Further read:

"Religious status affecting natives due to 'NRD mistake'" http://www.dailyexpress.com.my/news.cfm?NewsID=72407

You see, In Sabah & Sarawak,

*A child with a chinese name can be either a pure chinese or a Native

*A child with Bin or Binti in his/her Identity card, birth cert etc does not necessarily mean he/she is a Malay because he/she can be a native

*A child with a name very incline towards a typical Malay name like Yakob, Ahmad etc does not necessarily mean he/she is a Malay because he/she can be a native

This post is not intended to be a racist remark in any way. This is just to convey my opinions/dissatisfactions towards how indifferent/ignorant a person could be towards others.

xxx

Happy 5th Birthday to...

2010-05-06T22:05:00.006+08:00

My Twinhead Notebook Efio!121!

and Thank You for the 5 great years you've given to me (and hopefully more years to come :) )

Taken at present day

My dad bought the notebook for me about 5 years ago (May 2005) when I was studying at MARA College in Banting doing my International Baccalaureate Diploma. I didn't have my laptop until my 2nd year of studies there so the first year I went about 'borrowing' other friends'. Seriously, there were lots of writings to do and I bet one could hardly survive through years there without a laptop of their own.

My Twinhead notebook has been very loyal to me. Traveling around with me as I clasped it tightly when I passed through the crowd. Holding my eyes closely at it as it passed through the scanner at the airport for fear of losing it from my sight! Despite it being a relatively small notebook with 12" screen and 2kg of weight, it is really quite heavy to be carried around.

I brought it to UK with me and it stayed loyal to me throughout my years there. Though there weren't that many school-related work except for some course works that needed the use of a computer, plus with many computers provided by the university, I never really have to use my own notebook to do all the works. So while I was there, my notebook served me the most as a source of entertainment like internet surfing, watching tv dramas, movies, listening to songs, skype-ing that sort of stuffs :)

Then here I am in Penang doing KPLI. Numerous (silly + useless) presentations, essays, reports, folios not to forget lesson plans, jurnals et cetera during the 10-week practicum :S

Thank God my notebook is still in a good working order so I was able to do all the works given. Not much problem except that the battery has died (recently) :S

Despite it being one of the most less unknown notebook brand as compared to its counterparts like toshiba, hp, dell, acer etc2 and is one of the oldest surviving notebook amongst my classmates', It still performs at its best :)

That is why, this post is a tribute to my Twinhead notebook.

Hopefully you stay healthy yeah notebook.

Though I had it already in mind to substitute you with a new one (sorry please don't die after this lol)

Happy 5th birthday twinhead notebook. And no..i don't have a name for it :D

xxx

Soundtrack of my life

2010-04-25T14:51:00.010+08:00

Hello people..

Do you remember the times when you got hooked to a song and you keep playing the song again and again. The kind of music that has the power to tickle your heart and soul, brought you to a level where you reflect on your present life and thought for a moment for what future lies ahead of you?

and...you can just sit for hours whilst enjoying the music? (What a good excuse to procrastinate :P )

Yeah..I know that..

At the moment I am so attached with songs by Ingrid Michealson. In fact I listened to most of her songs and thought they are really2 wonderful.. :)

Oh..and another thing I just noticed..

Most of the songs that I love are by female singers, who are mostly singer cum songwriter and play their own musical instruments like Ingrid Michaelson herself, Prischilla Ahn, Chantal Kreviazuk and Idina Menzel.. I love them!!

Enjoy this song Keep Breathing and The Chain by Ingrid Michaelson.

Not the official videoclip though..

Beautiful melody and meaningful lyrics :)

Have a pleasant day

xxx

Teaching Practice

2010-04-16T23:16:00.008+08:00

Finally.. my 10-week teaching practice has come to an end.

I guess..I must say I had had more sweet memories than bitter ones in which I'm truly grateful for. My journey as a trainee teacher was indeed a smooth one if I were to compare it with my other friends. For this..I'm thankful that I was assigned to be a trainee in this school, SMKA Al-Mashoor (L), Pulau Pinang.

Though hesitated to be placed in this school at first for one it being a religious boys school and also with our not-so-pleasant 1st meeting with the PK1 in the beginning..everything turned out to be just fine.

The teachers were great. Some whom I got close to during the 10-week period were really great teachers to me.. I'm really thankful to got to know them.

The students.. :) were great too!

Since this school is a controlled school so it can be considered as one of the best school in town (sounds like a product ad lol). The two classes I was in charged to teach Math to were actually 'last' classes. In spite of this, they turned out to be quite impressive :)

I must say..I'm proud to have the chance to teach these students..

Some of the things that I think were somewhat an achievement to me: 6 out of 10 of my Form 4 students managed to get A for Math in their Ujian Penilaian 1 (bangga sikit la). Also some of my Form 2 students were so interested in Math that they ask for extra questions from me. (hey..many ppl dislike math ok haha). So these things..tiny little things actually made some of my days in school :)

The experience and knowledge I gained..I must say were really valuable.

This is where I learnt to be ACCEPTING towards my students.

Though sometimes I wonder whether I was meant to be a teacher or not..

I guess..you'll never know before you try :)

I am aware that the journey as a teacher will not always be pleasant..

Then again..one must always remember that there's no such thing as an easy job.

One just has to go through his/her challenges with much determination and with God's blessing..one may succeed :D

me and the students of 2 Amru

and 4 Usamah

xxx

When I say I love you..I really do

2010-03-20T16:39:00.011+08:00

Just came back from a one week break. It felt so good to put all work-related matters aside for a moment. It was such a good getaway..for the both of us.

It was a trip which taught us more about each other, taught us more about understanding each other.

Being in a long distance relationship for several years make us 'good' in it (LDR). In the beginning we used to complain a lot about not being able to see each other as much as we like to. But as we go along the years, the distance didn't matter that much to us anymore because we were 'used' to it.

Now.. now that I'm no longer that far away from him..(though still far away)

Now that we can see each other more often I thought that things will be easier for us..or so I thought. I became more demanding and want him to be by my side at all times with the excuse to 'replace' the years that we had 'lost' for not being able to see each other (physically) in which.. I now think is fairly senseless. I admit that I can be childish sometimes and it is not something that I'm proud of.

When I think of it now.. we didn't lose the years together when I was abroad. We never did. We had never wasted any seconds of it. Though I was thousand miles away from home we both knew everything that was going on with our own lives. We never failed to contact each other everyday and asked about how we were doing. So what was all that? Were they just a daily routine?

No..it wasn't.

It was a relationship.

A relationship that showed how much we cared for each other and missed each other.

Distance didn't matter, it never did.

This is like an awakening for me.

I always complain that we are not seeing each other as much as other couples do. And I know I can be impatient at times and said all the wrong things..without thinking. I know that I made him feel bad, I know that I hurt him by saying all those things :(

The fact that he came and spent the week with me made me realize how foolish I was with all my demands. He spent his time working around the clock to make sure his work is settled before he left to meet me. He always say that he is not working on office hours. He can be working on Sundays and I (foolishly) never want to understand that on the other hand.. accused him for not wanting to spend time with me.

I think..in this relationship I am the one who needs to grow up.

We are not teenagers anymore when life is a bed of roses.

We now have other commitments besides our commitment to each other.

He realized this earlier than I do.. and now I'm going to follow you. I promise..

I love you..sayang.

Happy 5th anniversary :)

xxx

I'm counting days..

2010-02-28T17:17:00.008+08:00

To see you!!!

Can't wait to see you~

Can't wait to spend my time with you~

Can't wait to hold you and feel you by my side when I wake up in the morning~

Can't wait to listen to nothing but your voice and your cleverly stupid phrases that makes me laugh like crazy :P

Can't wait to think about nothing else but you & us~

See you soon love :)

xxx

Little Things..

2010-02-22T20:41:00.004+08:00

Little Things ~ Chantal Kreviazuk

Misery's turning my luck around

Framed all the faces on my way down

I don't have a reason, a reason to lie
The dull pain is screaming to be left behind, oh

It's never easy to see your past
Unfold before you, the outcast
I don't have a reason, a reason to cry
Caterpillars turn into rare butterflies, oh
Whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

The little things we hide
The little things inside
I don't wanna show them and I'll be alright
Oh oh oh

Humility's easing my ego down
The past holds the truth like a lost and found
There's no need to worry, no need to be scared
'Cause little things will come along and life's never fair, no
Whoa oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

The little things we hide
The little things inside
I don't wanna show them that I'll be alright

Everything is gonna be ...
Everything is alright
Everything is gonna be ...
Everything is alright, is alright, is alright

The little things we hide
The little things inside
I don't wanna show them and we'll be alright
The little things we hide
The little things inside
I don't wanna show them and I'll be alright

Help me to erase you from my mind..

xxx

Double Celebration..

2010-02-14T17:46:00.003+08:00

Today is..

the 1st day of Chinese New Tiger Year!

Xin Nian Kuai Le!

Happy Valentine's Day to all the people I love :)

I just make use of my driving license today teehee :P

xxx

just ranting

2010-02-07T20:55:00.005+08:00

It's been one week since I started my practicum in the school. Trying to get used to this whole thing about being a teacher and trying to understand the social culture of the school..

Not an easy task :S

Neither do lesson planning..

I wonder why we need such a detail lesson plan (3-5 pages for a lesson plus reflection) whilst the other teachers just need to 'fill in the blanks' for half a page for their lesson plan..Unfair..

Oh well... I am just a trainee teacher..

I have been in a rather emotionally difficult situation for the past two months or so.

Is it because of a 3rd person?

Is it because of me?

I don't know..

I myself am very unclear of the situation.

Felt like I'm trapped in between.

Sad..sad case

I try not too think about it too much..

But I guess it hasn't affect my work so far..which is good

In the mean time.. I just go on with my life

Life is never meant to be easy right?

How I miss those traveling days..

I miss traveling!!!

Hoping to go for a holiday soon..

Btw..131 days till end of KPLI

I just set up my countdown on igoogle :D

xxx

Practicum..

2010-01-31T11:45:00.001+08:00

Oh my...

can't believe that it's finally here...

starting from tomorrow

10 weeks of practicum.. scary..

Despite the minor glitches we had with the school earlier..

hope everything will turn out to be OK

Gambate neh!

Despite the personal-related matter I faced earlier..

I'm going to be strong..

Personal matters and work-related matter are two different things.

I'm going to be 'PROFESSIONAL' in dealing with it..

xxx

We are just human beings

2010-01-27T00:48:00.001+08:00

Who knows what lies ahead of you?

Do you know who is going to be by your side 20, 30 or 40 years from now?

How do you know that you are making the right decision?

We can't see the future..

Some may predict what might happen..

But one will never be sure..

I thought I have found love..

But was it really?

Was I sure? Am I sure?

I do not know.

Maybe I did..

But then again..

Can it stand through all the roughs of life?

People change..

There are many things one needs to consider.

Love grows, love fades..

Who to be held responsible if your relationship succeed or failed?

You? Me?

Again..We are just human beings..

I have always believe that once I believe I'm in love then that's it..

One doesn't need a break up..

One doesn't need to find new love..

But then again..

Why do we hear stories of break ups and divorces?

Why did one even think they are in exception of all these?

We are just human beings..

xxx

1st post of 2010..

2010-01-11T19:57:00.005+08:00

Happy New Year 2010..

It's only the 11th day of the freshly new year and we have been marred by embarrassing incidents happened in the country.. Sigh..

I rather not talk about that as it is just too depressing.

May God bless us all..

Last year has been good to me if not great.

It is a year of so many life changing experiences..

Which led to a turning point..

and allowed me to encounter with a new surrounding..

New understanding of certain issues perhaps..

Or did it bring another set of complicated doubts to be cleared..

Juggling between responsibilities and desires..

Studies, career..

Love, family and friends...??

I don't know..some were left unanswered..

Let's hope for a greater year 2010..

May all of us become wiser in everything that we decide to do..

The year of the Tiger it will be according to the Chinese calendar..

and it is my year..going to be 24 this year :S

xxx

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-21T12:26:00.008+08:00

Christmas is around the corner :)

Pictures taken at 1Borneo, KK

Have a blessed Christmas :)

xxx

The final month of 2009

2009-12-16T20:44:00.005+08:00

It's December people!!! Half a December to be exact

A couple of weeks to go and we are going to say good bye to another year..

Haih..time flies

Currently I'm enjoying my six-week break at home. What a relief after somewhat a hectic semester.Well 2 1/2 more weeks to go before it's gonna end though..sigh..

Anyhoo..the purpose of this post is of course not to complain like what I did in my previous post. I am now determined to just put up with whatever I have to for the remaining 6 months or so.. BRING IT ON!

Enuff about that.. I actually pity this blog for abandoning her for like months now.. aiks.. I'm a useless blogger.. Gonna take care of it from now on coz i love her.. (her iz my blog la of course my blog is a she..ok nonsense)

So.. what have I been doing over the break one may ask hehe..

BABYSITTING... yeah that is what i've been doing

nah..babysitting this lil' one lah..

she can sit on her own now..well actually not really hehe..

Do i look like a real nanny..

Ok it actually took me a while to decide to put that photo up here. Like seriously I look so dark now. Just look at my shiny face! Ok that is maybe because this photo was taken in the evening when my face is all greasy oily yuks..

Damn I miss UK..I miss UK weather..Haha so not true.. Well of course I miss the UK but the freezing cold weather is something that I would certainly think twice before I would want to endure it again lol.. But I miss the snow though.. I wonder how my 12 Argyle Terracian friends are doing during this winter season..Is it freezing?? Snowing?? ) Well I definitely loathe the cold but the weather actually helped my skin to be oily-free, pimple-free and fairer too.. geez..

Oh and nowadays people keep asking why am i so skinny.. Have I not been eating? Hey I eat a lot of rice in Penang ok.. This may come to some people as a compliment..you know being skinny (i.e slim :P ) But NO.. all these come with a oh-not-so-good-surprise kinda look or what-happen-should-I-be-concerned? kinda look .. And my mom even ask me if i'm taking some kind of slimming pill or something.. like OMG.. I think it's because of the hectic life I have in Penang that made me what I look now. Dark and skinny :( Oh.. Have I mention that I went for a two-week camping travelling from Langkawi to Johor consecutively for two weeks a week before my school break? Two weeks under the scorching sun.. I guess you now have a picture of my condition..

Anyway.. before I stop. Here's a close up of me..after a verrrryyyy looooong time since I put my camwhoring activity to hiatus haha

Going to take some pics with xmas tree from one of the shopping mall here in KK this weekend.. and post it here next hehe..

Christmas is coming...la..la..la..

It's been a while..

2009-10-15T21:40:00.005+08:00

Hello..

It's been a while since I last wrote something here. Been pretty busy. Or should I say..been pretending to be busy. Yeah I've been busy and lazy and the same time. I won't be writing much from now on.. I guess I have lost the keenness to write.

I am writing this from home at KP now. Just finished my 2-week Rancangan Orientasi Sekolah in my old school. It was great to see my former teachers after almost six years since I left school.

Now I'm just enjoying my last few days before I go back to Penang and continue classes again :S

I still have many essays and portfolios to complete.

Sigh..sigh..

One couldn't imagine how ridiculous are these assignments.. TOO MANY ASSIGNMENTS!!

I mean.. it's completely silly how some of the lecturers came in for 1 or 2 times and boom! Do this and that present this and that.. and we have 6 units/subjects excluding all the co-curricular activities.

Silly isn't it. I am close to declaring KPLI as the worst course ever!

It is probably because this course only last for a year (less actually), they are trying to put in as much content they could into our brain.. which is good intention but on the other hand.. I hate how inefficient the management of this course is by our 'beloved' IPGM.

What can I do.. :S

Sigh..

Sometimes I miss being a student in the UK. Don't mean to compare but.. the arrangement of my course in uni was really good. Management of stuffs in that part of the world is much much better than here. Sad to say this but one can really see the difference.

Tahan saja lah..

xxx

Selamat Hari Merdeka & Selamat Berpuasa

2009-08-20T21:01:00.007+08:00

Selamat menyambut perayaan kemerdekaan ke-52 dan selamat berpuasa :)

damn my arm looks huge..have I been eating too much since I came to Penang??

My classmates and I together with the 'assignment' we completed.

MERDEKA!!! (patriotik la pula :P )

Semester break starts tomorrow though it's only a one week break and it won't be a carefree holiday because I've got a lot of assignments to complete!! argh...

Still..I'm super excited to go back home :)

xxx

Berita dari blok Rambai

2009-08-16T11:37:00.010+08:00

haha.. yes2.. Blok Rambai is what my hostel is called..

Was suppose to have kelas ganti yesterday (Saturday) for the coming Deepavali holidays in October. However instead of having classes we had Senamrobik Marathon. We had to do aerobics for two hours non-stop.

We were grouped according to different ages: 17-19 year olds, 20-35; 35 and above.

It was tiring but it was indeed fun haha. We followed the instructors at the front along with music playing in the background. So I was kinda 'dancing'. Just enjoying myself :)

When the aerobics ended I was sitting at the seating area near the field eating bun when the Pengarah passed by and said "Were you the one dancing just now? It was you right?" I was like "errrr..all of us were dancing."

There were prizes to be given out and J358 was announced!

Guess who was using the number J358?

Me!! haha..

I won first prize for our category.

Haha.. funny rite.. No wonder la the pengarah said that to me. I guess I was really dancing after all.

So I won a hamper packed with junk food and air freshener =_="

When I found out that other consolation prizes got RM30 cash, I was like WTF?? They received cash and I got a hamper that is almost surely worth much less?? Grrr...

Oh well.. It doesn't matter la (oh yes it does :( )

My winning prize =_="

P/S: Can't wait for semester break next week!

xxx

So far..

2009-08-05T20:44:00.004+08:00

Well..what can I say.. so far so good lar..

The two years 'training' I had in KMB made my life adjustment here in this IPGM free and easy.

(I am now actually being grateful for my 'experiences' in KMB haha)

The hostel condition not as bad as KMB.

Room is much bigger than KMB! (I have a room mate)

Curfew not as cruel as KMB. No ID to scan in and scan out like in KMB.

Here we can go out everyday after classes.

The food in the cafeteria not bad as well. Can go out and eat too of course and there's a big Tesco close by. :D

The IPGM was actually still closed on Monday when I arrived for registration due to one or two confirmed H1N1 case here on campus. So there was no program until yesterday(Tuesday). I met a few Sabahan friends who are here for KPLI as well (but different program from mine) and we went out to Bukit Jambut and played bowling haha.. I'm so glad to know them because they are really one cool bunch of people to hang out with :)

Classes will probably start either the coming Friday or Monday as we are still having introduction sessions till tomorrow. What I am not sure now are the classes and workloads.

Hope it won't be too difficult.

Oh yeah..we have to join co-curricular activities as well. It is COMPULSORY and will be assessed. For my class, we have to join the Scout movement, Volleyball , traditional games, athletic and learn about how to manage and organize co-curricular activities and sports events.. which I think will be very useful when we become teachers next time. I joined scouts before and traditional games seem interesting so I'm thinking that won't be much of a problem. Furthermore..It's been a while since I joined camping! I love camping :D But..athletic and volleyball..hmm I'm not so much of a sporty person you know lol..

Hoping it will be fun as well..

Classes will start from 8am to 1.30pm everyday and co-curricular activities start at 2.30pm onwards on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. So I pretty much will be busy throughout the weekdays :S

And oh yeah..we have assemblies as well haha..Every Wednesday for unit-unit beruniform so have to wear uniform during the assembly haha and one monthly formal assembly..funny rite. It's exactly like school!!

Haih..nevermind..for training sake..

xxx

Flying to Penang

2009-08-02T23:28:00.004+08:00

Dang!!!!

Holidays feel so short!!!

I'm flying to Penang tomorrow and will be in IPGM Penang campus for my KPLI.

Arghh...

Memories of Banting kept flashing in my mind!!

I hope it won't be as stressful as KMB :S

Im going back to school..I mean 'boarding school' argggghhhh!!!!

My freedom~~~ gone...

Stressnya...

I'm expecting the worst but let's hope it won't be as stressful as I expected lol...

The good news is, if what I heard is true then I shall be having holidays similar to schools in Malaysia. You know..all the cuti penggal, cuti akhir tahun etc2.. so I'll be having lots of cuti. But classes will start in the morning and ends in the evening!! :S

Haih..though it's just a 10-month course..(what am I complaining about??)

10 months is not long rite..plus all the hols...(trying to calm myself)

We'll see..

Btw..

introducing..

Adrienne Jazzelle Eng Xiao Yan

xxx

RIPs

2009-07-30T12:53:00.003+08:00

RIP to a relative of mine who was also a dear friend, Lauretta Juliet.

It such a shocking news to hear that you are gone. Though considering how much you have suffered and fought hard for your life, it's probably right to let you go in peace.

You will always be remembered and may God bless the two beautiful children you left behind.

Also,

RIP to Yasmin Ahmad.

It is indeed such a loss to the country to lose an extraordinary person who inspires others like no one else. I really loved her works.

May God bless her soul.

xxx

I am now an aunt...

2009-07-21T23:18:00.005+08:00

Apologies for the long silence.

Back home for about three weeks now and just got connected to the online world a couple of days ago.

As of now, I'm writing this post from a hospital ward in KK.

No..I'm not sick or anything (also am not infected by the swine flu).

I'm here to accompany my sister who is expecting a baby soon. Pity her. She's suffering from labor pains for more than 12 hours now and was told that it could take longer.

But being here gives me roughly a know-how of how it is going to work. (you know for future use :P )

Contractions, vaginal opening :S etc etc..

Damn..

The process of childbirth is really not an easy job :S

Hope she'll be fine.

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My post was disrupted earlier because my laptop ran out of battery and there was no power point available atm.

22nd July 2009:

My sister safely delivered a healthy baby girl at 7.47pm weighing 2.65kg

Welcome to the world baby girl!!!!

xxx

2 days to home & Graduation

2009-07-07T00:51:00.011+08:00

Since I graduated, I've been bombarded with questions about:

1. Whether I'm looking forward to go back home

2. Whether I'm gonna miss life in the UK

My answer is always YES to both questions!

I just couldn't really put down into words about the feelings I have at the moment.

It is a mixture of feelings..

I'm happy & sad at the same time..

I'm excited and nervous too..

What I can say is that..

I'm thankful for the three years I spent here in the UK.

I'm thankful for the wonderful friends I got to know..

It has all been nothing but great!

There were ups and downs of course but hey.. that's life :)

Now I'm going to close the UK chapter..

Sigh..

I'm gonna miss being here in Bath!

I'm gonna miss my friends!

Finally, a BSc. (hons) Mathematics degree holder :P

xxx

8 days to home & Noise pollution

2009-06-30T17:49:00.019+08:00

I shall always remember to not have my house located along a busy main road when I do have my own house next time. Know why? Because it is so noisy!

The loud sound of cars mounting, lorries (huge, loud lorries), sirens, motorcycles..

Honking...honking!!

Man...it's just too noisy..

I never really noticed the noise because I rarely spent my afternoons in the house before this .. Well.. of course with lectures and stuffs going on beforehand.

But now that my room (which is facing the main road) is where I spend most of my possibly more than 18 hours on a stay-home-day in. The noise is just inevitable.

Also now that it's summer and the room is becoming hotter and stuffy, It's crucial to have the window open in order to get some fresh air in. But it is just impossible with the noise that coming in from outside. I tell you I can't even listen properly to the conversations of the sitcoms I'm watching with the window open. (Oh yeah..I've been watching FRIENDS from their pilot episode and now on Season 8 )

The noise is so annoying!

Grrr....

Alright enough with the annoyance..

Here's a picture of peace and serenity to help you(me) erase all the troubles/annoyances that are bothering you at the moment (with the song Loving You by Minnie Ripperton playing in the background) :)

Picture taken at Victoria Park, on a quiet evening

Have a great day people!

xxx

Buckingham Palace & Wicked Wicked

2009-06-29T19:47:00.022+08:00

Went to London to watch Wicked's matinee show last Wednesday..

Before the show started.. I made my way to the Buckingham Palace..Well just to catch one last glance of it before I leave..

It was so crowded because people were there to watch the changing of Guard ceremony.

So I decided to join in.

People were pushing their way through along the palace's fencing to get the best view of the ceremony. Kids were also pushing trying to get pass everyone in front.

I felt like an idiot standing in between the crowds after some time.

And the weather was so hot!!

And so I left..Managed to take some photos though..

The crowds at the Buckingham Palace

The marching bands and the Guards

The Palace

The thing about walking around on your own is.. There's no one to help you to take pictures! And I didn't dare to ask some random people to take pic for me fearing they would run away with my camera or something and..I was shy to ask also la!

So this was the best I could do (Not so much of a 'camwhorer' myself nowadays)..with a giant lamp post standing there..so clever hor T___T

So..what can I say about Wicked..

It was awesome!

The songs were great..witty script..great props..amazing casts..

Especially Glinda's character..she's very funny :)

I really enjoyed it..

Inside the Apollo Victoria Theatre. Before it started.

And now I'm addicted to this..and the other songs too!

It's such a shame that I didn't grab the chance to watch more musical theatre while I'm here in the UK :(

Anyway..It was a fun day out :)

xxx

10 days to HOME!! & Hot Air Balloon

2009-06-28T17:33:00.013+08:00

No...I'm not counting the days..

It's just that the weather is at its best at the moment.

Summer..

Average temperature is about 25'C to 27'C during the day.

It's sunny, warm and hot though not scorching hot like the one we experience in Malaysia.

The feeling is pleasant.

People are more lighten up, spending more of their time outdoor enjoying the sunshine and wearing pretty summer dresses..

Anyways..

One of the many summer activities they have around here is to get onto the hot air balloon!

Well it is expensive to get on one and as far as I know people booked like months earlier to secure a place on one of these..

I went to see it the other day. Some pictures I took. Chronologically :)

Balloon still on the ground. They are filling gas into it.

When there is enough gas in it, the balloon will start to float.

See it's almost up

The base/box where people stand on is still attached to a string at the moment so as to not let it 'fly' yet

The balloon is huge. When you are underneath it you'll feel as if it's going to fall on you when the wind blows it to the left and right

It's cute though. Imagine it like a red & round humpty dumpty haha..

When the string is detached..the balloon 'flies'

And it's up in the air!

Up..up..

and away!

The view must be amazing looking down from the hot air balloon :)

xxx

I've graduated!

2009-06-19T17:44:00.016+08:00

Oh yes..I passed and graduated! Finally! Officially!

Woohoo.. isn't this just the best feeling ever?

Three years of (not-so) hard work have finally paid off with a bachelor's degree at hand.

huh..A sigh of relief..

What can I say..

I'm so happy that I passed all my final semester papers. (Well considering I always have had one paper to sangkut in previous semesters lol)

I'm so happy that I got 82% for MA30059 Mathematical Methods 2! Well.. that's my highest so far haha..If you remember.. this unit was taught by My Mr. Darcy! (hehe..Need I explain more?)

So there you go. With a credit weighted average of 57.59% (calculated from the averages of Year 2 & Year 3) I graduated with a 2:2 .

No.. I didn't finish 1st (obviously lol) but I am pleased with my results.. Well..it was as expected anyway :)

Graduation ceremony will be held on July 2nd. Quite sad my parents aren't coming to see me graduate. But it's okay.

The more important thing to do now is..

To choose my graduation outfit! haha :D

Not that it matters that much anyway since I'm going to wear the gown thingy which is going to cover the clothes I'm wearing.. but I'm having hard time to decide!

So, which outfit do you want to see me wearing on my graduation day?

The smart-working attire with belt

or the smart-casual black dress?

p/s: I am a graduate now, I feel so old !!!

xxx

Bath, United Kingdom

2009-06-16T19:55:00.007+08:00

This is it.

The city that has become the eyewitness of some of the most important events in my life.

The onlooker to some of my crucial life episodes.

It is almost time to say good bye now.

I am going to miss this city so dearly.

xxx

Kerja orang menganggur..

2009-06-05T02:08:00.021+08:00

I'm jobless..

I wake up early in the morning, breakfast, read online news, go online, lunch, read book, occasional walk around, dinner, movies, read book, Zzzzz...

Sounds boring right?

My plan to travel to Switzerland had to be cancelled because of the limited number of traveling buddies available at the moment.

The bf doesn't allow me to travel outside the UK if the number of my travel companions are less than two and neither of them have vagina.

Haha..you get what I mean? Well I know he is just being concerned (or maybe jealous..eeee) Anyway, I do believe that it is important to have great companions whom you can hang out with during a trip to make sure that trip is fun and enjoyable.

Well looking at the bright side..I can save some money for shopping. Gosh..I actually need to buy some stuffs for people back home :S

Why the :S face? Knowing me you know I like shopping hehe..but.. I only like shopping for myself haha. Not that I'm stingy or anything :p but mind you.. buying stuffs for other people is not an easy task you know.

The bf keep asking me to buy something distinctively UK which must neither be souvenir nor food! Huh..that got me thinking for a while because..I have no idea! He said how could I not know this even after living here for almost three years..haih..

Seriously.. UK is not really the best place to find 'distinctive' things that only the UK has. Besides the souvenirs (key chains, mugs etc ) All I could think of is the "I LOVE LONDON" t-shirt..is that very 'UK-ish'? But then again..New York has its own "I LOVE NY" and that T-shirt is a souvenir! :S

KH said I should buy Earl Grey Tea because it is made in 'UK'. Oh yeah I should buy shortbread too. But these are food!

Haih..I gotta start shopping soon..

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5th June 2009

I went shopping! hahaha... Guess what I shop for today?

Baby clothes for the soon-coming baby niece !

The clothes are all so cute you know..all very small hihihi..cute..cute..

The funny thing is..most of the people at the baby section were either moms or moms-to-be..and there was me.. browsing happily through all the baby clothes..haha you know what I mean :P

this one is my favourite :)

I also bought some T-shirts for my dad, bro and the bf. 70% discount man haha...

Today's shopping was fun! Well..as always :)

My search for a 'distinctive' UK item : Failed

xxx

So much memories~

2009-05-29T17:14:00.015+08:00

Basically, I can now happily announce that I have finished tertiary education! Yay~! But not officially though..I still have to wait for exams results to be announced then only I can say I have graduated from university or not..argh...

Anyway..I was clearing up some stuffs in my room yesterday and realized that I collected so much 'rubbish'. From travel brochures to boarding passes of the places I travelled to plus some entrance fee tickets to museums and places of interest, public transport tickets etc etc.. Actually I collect all those stuffs because initially I thought of creating a 'travel scrapbook' in which..unfortunately, I've never really got around into doing it! Haih I'm so useless. Now I have to throw them away because it would be unreasonable for me to pack them and bring them back home!

Rubbish..notice the 2nd picture? movie tickets also got haha! Night At the Museum also got oh..they are out with the 2nd movie already lor..See..I'm obviously collecting rubbish from very2 long time ago rite?

and I also came across with this

haha..so funny this was actually when I was practicing my 'taking orders' skill at home after a training session as a breakfast waiting staff in a hotel. Pulteney is one of the rooms in the hotel, NB is the normal English breakfast and CONT is continental breakfast set. P. is poached for poached eggs.

"How would you like your eggs cooked? Scrambled, fried, poached, boiled?"

hahaha..so funny

Oh oh I still remember one customer said he/she wanted it sunny side up haha..I was like huh?I didn't know what sunny side up mean back then..lol funny funny stuffs..

Oh..those were the days :)

Sigh..so much memories! It was like walking down memory lane yesterday. Can't believe it has been three years!

Hehe...Ok different story..I have finished watching some TV shows which I have put on hold to because of exams. One Tree Hill, Prison Break and Grey's Anatomy have all finished their season finale! And I tell you what..All these three shows managed to make me cry.. well okay maybe not cry la just got tears in my eyes. They were all so sad..and happy~ and Grey's Anatomy's cliffhanger is so good it is killing me! Now how am I going to live these few months without my daily dose of tv shows? haih..

Haih..why does it seem like I sigh a lot huh..

Anyway.. three years' effort on acquiring knowledge about Mathematics are all here. Yes these are my three years worth of notes and tutorial sheets. Now what do I do with them?

well actually I kinda decided to put them into good use..am gonna recycle them! yay!

xxx

Maths oh Maths...

2009-05-23T06:04:00.003+08:00

Today's quotes of the day from iGoogle:

"Mathematics may be defined as the subject in which we never know what we are talking about, nor whether what we are saying is true."
-Bertrand Russel

This came from a renowned Mathematician himself.

Oh dear, have I wasted my whole three years?

xxx

4 down 1 more to go..then I'm DONE!

2009-05-22T04:35:00.013+08:00

As the title claimed, I have one more paper to go then I shall finish my degree course! Yahoooo!!

Wait.. might still be too early for a shout of freedom at the moment.

In five days, I shall..

Final paper on Wednesday morning..

Though I suppose my last two papers were somewhat a disaster! Sob..sob...

Anyway..I wanna show you some random pics I took:

Photo taken during my ride home from uni, in a bus, on a rainy day.

I love the effect hehe..

Photo taken from from my bedroom window on a heavy rainy day..

And on the contrary,

Rays of sun creeping into my room. This was taken at around 9pm.

Summer is definitely approaching!

Ok la will write again when I'm done with exams.

Total exams done : 29/30 papers (from Year 1 Semester 1)

Last paper 27/05/09: Stochastic Processes

BRING IT ON!

xxx

Why are we complaining?

2009-05-14T03:46:00.018+08:00

"Are you gonna finish strong?"

- Nick Vujicic

Watch this video this guy is amazing!

Now why are we complaining again?

xxx

Doo daa doodle doo..

2009-05-11T04:24:00.004+08:00

I was revising...and doodling..

This is my revision doodle..

Close up..

Kenapa ada dua ekor kucing? Si tompok dan si belang?

Lukisan saya buruk..

Exams start esok..Wish me luck :)

xxx

Kepada yang berkenaan..

2009-05-10T01:14:00.004+08:00

I Love You..

xxx

Macam sarang tebuan

Feels Like Home

2009-05-07T04:43:00.005+08:00

I used to fall in love with a certain songs because of the melody, now.. I'm starting to also appreciate the lyrics in them..

Some lyrics are so beautiful, meaningful and simply touches my soul..

My latest favourite "Feels Like Home" by Chantal Kreviazuk..

"Feels Like Home"

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself

Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms

There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast

Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been

And how long I've been so alone

And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along

And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street

And a siren wails in the night

But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me

And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me

And how long I've waited for your touch

And if you knew how happy you are making me

I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me

It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

xxx

Currency confusions..

2009-05-02T16:44:00.025+08:00

Ever since I came to the UK, I had the chance to deal with my first foreign currency and that is the British Pound Sterling.

It was at the rate of RM6.8++ to GBP1 almost three years ago, now it is down to only RM5.2++. Well because of the economic downturn of course which is hitting the UK hard on the ball :S

'Converting currency' is common for most international students who come to study here (Malaysians in particular). In this case I mean, if they are out shopping for example and if they see a pair of jeans which cost GBP30, now it is actually RM200++ in their minds. Hmm..expensive right..so..that pair of jeans is a big no no now.

I on the other hand, has never actually go on with this 'convert all prices to Ringgit first' thingy. GBP30 is almost equivalent to RM30 for me..(bukan mahu bermintapuji) That's how I've been registering all these numbers in my head.. Small number, cheap.. I thought.. Probably these explain why sometimes when I really like something and it is 'quite expensive', I simply buy them :P

However, the good thing is, I always cap my shopping prices at GBP30-35 the most. Except during Boxing Day. I remember I spent more than GBP200++ in a day..that was like RM1200++ ??? You say wtf right?

When I'm back home in Malaysia, I can never spent anything >RM70 on a piece of clothing because I think 70 is expensive for a top, say. Whilst a GBP 15 (~ RM90) top is considered cheap for me here because of the number 15 ~ RM15..A self-contradicting act you say? I would say I'm blinded by the numbers..

This is probably because I am pampered by KPM who give me allowance in Pounds that I don't mind spending them.. I didn't have to see my parents forking out that money for me and changing them from the small Ringgit to this huge Pounds like how my other friends' parents did. So the real deal of the currency exchange situation have never really hit me. Yeah..that's the probable cause of it. (please don't hate me :p)

Now I only have a few months left to 'play around' with my Pounds, before I go back dealing with Ringgit again in which I am most certain that my shopping regime is going to have a change of pattern, if not drastically.

I shall no longer play around with the 'affordable-branded' items that I was introduced to when I came here (Monthly allowance is not that much ok) Believe me, before this, I've never said "I bought a top from Jane Norman, I bought a handbag from Accesorize." It used to only be, "I bought a top from this kedai in Centre Point" (a shopping centre in KK)

Haha..well at least not until I've started working and have decent amount of savings myself before I can reach some sort of luxury of my own. I hope. :)

xxx

Limei, Meryl & Andy came to Bath!

2009-04-25T16:45:00.022+08:00

This post is meant to be a picture-post because I want to show you pictures of what I have been up to during Spring break. (2nd week of hols, 1st week was Prague remember? :) )

Limei, Meryl & Andy came to Bath!

(pictures courtesy of Meryl & Andy- they are the one with DSLR!)

Day 1: Jalan-jalan di Bath city

From left: Limei, Andy & me..in front of Bath Abbey church

My guests, Meryl in the middle and the gang.. in Roman Bath

Went to Sally Lunn's restaurant and tried the popular buns. What I like about this picture is..my red shoe and how I tilted it that way ! :D

Look at how big the buns are!

We stopped by at Jane Austen centre and played around with her

Met up with Dong and friends who also visited Bath for a day trip On our way to Royal Crescent Chilling at Royal Crescent

Playing frisbee at Royal Crescent

Ber'kung fu' at Royal Crescent

Menghirup udara segar di Avon River

Avon River the gorgeous

Avon River and long narrow boats

Really like this pic :)

Day 2: Jalan-jalan at my uni then jalan kaki turun bukit ke Bathwick Hill

Oh yeah..actually..early morning on Day 2, while we were walking to town on a pedestrian street, a motorcycle came and hit Andy from behind. It was kinda like a hit & run. Kesian Andy terjatuh and hurt his knee. Passers-by who saw the accident advised us to call the police so we spent about three hours being questioned by the police and being driven to the police station in a police-patrol car! What a shocking morning to all of us!

After that Andy went for a haircut (memang already got appointment) and we went to Boston Tea Party cafe :)

Anyway, continuing our journey..

Posing kat uni saya

Chill2 lagi at my uni

Jalan kaki turun bukit

Tiba di Bathwick Hill.. Chill2 lagi..looking over Bath city

Then finally arrived at Kennet & Avon canal..

That's the end of Day 2.

Too many pictures dy..will update again later on Day 3: Visit to Stonehenge, Avebury, Lacock Village and Castle Combe.

xxx

Heavenly haven

2009-04-21T04:26:00.022+08:00

When I'm feeling blue or feel the need to unwind, I seek refuge from the nature.

Everytime I step into their territory, the army of trees always look as if they welcome me with a pleasant smile.

All leaves seem to be dancing along with the refreshing breeze,
All flowers seem to invite me into their loving embrace,

Oh how I love your sweet smell..

The grass is as green as jade, as wide as the horizon,

I thank God for all these beautiful creations,
A place where I can sit down and think about nothing at all..
A heavenly haven..

p/s: Exams are around the corner, am going to immerse myself with school work now.
Take care people :)

xxx

Soon to be aunty

2009-04-19T07:04:00.005+08:00

I was on webcam with my sister today. My second sister, Jenny who is six and a half month pregnant. It felt kinda weird to see her big tummy.. Well probably because it has been quite a while since I last saw her.
Do you know what my reaction was when she showed her tummy to me?

"Eee besarnya!" I exclaimed.

hahaha... I also said her double chin looked very obvious now hahaha... :D

Okay I am mean..You can say that..

Hmm..weird..the sister I always bully (yes I bullied my elder sister) and play with last time is a soon-to-be mummy to a baby girl and I am going to be an aunty! Aunty Abby..hahaha..

Sometimes I just coudn't believe how fast time passes us by. If you stop and turn back, do you notice how things have changed in our lives so far? I still remember vividly how we used to play kejar2 and tapuk2 when were kids.. Those were like..more than a decade ago! Sigh.. we are getting older :S

Even so, I must say I'm very excited! First niece eh..of course la excited right :)
Can't wait to see you baby..

xxx

Nine tools and rules

2009-04-18T06:10:00.006+08:00

Just finished my three-day English course. I must say..I really enjoyed it! I like the discussions we had and the people I met. Oh and I even sign up for the upcoming English course to be held in June (that is if I'm not going to travel anywhere)

This morning, the topic was about time management. No it wasn't some motivational talks haha.. It's just a piece of teaching material the teachers used today. After all it's an English class , there's always the linguistic part which you can relate to :)

I would like to share this with you which I think is very useful to be practiced into our daily lives.

The Nine Tools and Rules (of time management) taken from R. Gairns and S. Redman True to Life

1. Use your starter motor
2. Make routine your servant
3. Every 'yes' is 'no' to something else
4. Distant elephants
5. Salami
6. The curse of perfectionism
7. Once past the desk
8. Appointments need to end as well as start
9. Make time to plan

Some are self-explanatory as you might notice whilst the others may look a bit abstract. I just let you think about them okay :)

xxx

My Mr. Darcy

2009-04-16T04:48:00.010+08:00

I went up to Uni today to attend a short English course and also to finally concentrate on doing my coursework in the library!
And....Guess who I saw?
My Mr. Darcy!
Ok..you would't know about him because I've never talk about him before :P

Alright let's spill!
He's actually my lecturer.
Why is he my Mr. Darcy? Because he looks like the portrayal of Mr Darcy from Pride & Prejudice! Nope I haven't read the book yet but I've watched the movie :)

In the movie, Mr Darcy was portrayed by Colin Firth.. well the charming that Mr Firth already is, added by some attractive sideburns and also a curly, bushy hair.. (ok sounds a bit odd but nevermind)
He's just..HANDSOME. If you know, I have always have a thing for men with sideburns and beard haha..

That is what I see in my lecturer Dr I.K.. It's to no surprise that I always enjoy attending his lectures hehe.. Though I notice my Mr. Darcy had his hair trimmed a bit when I saw him just now. Nevertheless..still good looking as ever! Oh yeah..he has an adorable accent too.. Didn't realize how much I missed his lectures :)

Nah..this is Mr Darcy from the movie..seriously looks like my lecturer..handsome kan?

p/s: this is a pre-exam-stress-attack post
p/s/s: syg jgn jealous ah :P

xxx

New haircut..again

2009-04-14T06:55:00.015+08:00

Yeap..I cut my hair again. I'm just so into shorter hairstyle these days. Easier to manage. That's my reason :) Actually it's not much different from the last time, only that this one is shorter and straight at the end plus the fringe! Nah..I made a collage to show you different variations of me posing with the new haircut..haha

So..what do you think?

Would you say:
a) OMG you look like a kid!
b) OMG you remind me of my teacher in school!
c) OMG you cut your hair again?? Longer hair suits you better!
d) OMG you look great!
e) None of the above

xxx

Something to help me get through the day

2009-04-13T17:50:00.021+08:00

I always dream of a simple life.
No stress. No worries.
Just a happy, trouble-free and undemanding ones.

But..what life is without its trouble and roller-coaster rides?
What life is without nothing to worry about?
It's like living life in a dream..an idealistic, unrealistic dream.
Just like the ones in fairy-tales. Not real..is it?

I believe that the human minds and body are created to cope with the extremes of life. We are designed and are prepared to face anything from an utmost sadness to magical happiness, from a hectic life to a care-free ones and everything in between. Without one or the other, I would say.. we are incomplete.

Though..of course we strive for our most comfortable zone and this I mean could be anything you favour. However if along the way you encounter the downs of life..do not fret, do not worry. Just remember that, the melancholy of life is temporary. Live through it and you'll get passed it.

I picked a quotation:
"Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible." - Jane Rubietta

Have a good day people..

Spring break - Escape to Prague, Czech Republic

2009-04-12T16:28:00.006+08:00

Nah here's my promised post on Prague.

March 28th - April 1st 2009
Prague, Czech Republic

Well it has been more than a week since my trip to Prague at the beginning of my three-week Spring break. My memories on the bits and pieces as well as the smell of Prague that I initially planned to put in writing had slowly fade away. So here I am..fearing the potential of forgetting everything.. telling you my stories from Prague via pictures..hehe

Nah..this is Prague city center. Nightlife was quite amazing I must say. The place where another group of friends were staying was just opposite a cabaret! Huhu..Sexy mexy..and dangerous too :P

This one below is called the Astronomical Clock by the Old Town Square. The top clock has several points/circle to show you position of the Sun and moon. If you notice, the outermost circumference of the clock is showing the time of the day in literally 24 hours! Cool eh.. The clock at the bottom shows the star sign or zodiac. Every hour this clock will have its performance so a crowd will gather around it to watch. Sadly though, the show was really a short and simple one. I was expecting more perhaps after a great clock show I've seen in Porto.

Still at the Old Town Square. These are typical buildings you'll see in Prague. And these were all of the girls during our trip.

The 'castle-like' architecture behind is Tyn church. It is Gothic style. The style of architecture I favour more than the Baroque style which make up most of the buildings in Prague city. If you notice, one of the two spires of the church is smaller, this is because the smaller spire represents Eve while the bigger one portrays Adam. Interesting right? And..SY and YK feeding birds.

This is me standing on Charles bridge. The most popular bridge in Prague. If you watch The Amazing Race Asia Season 2, you'll probably remember in the last two pit stops where the contestants were asked to search for clues in one of the statues on the bridge. Indeed, Charles bridge has many bronze statues on it.
Behind is the Prague Castle Complex. Well Prague Castle comprises of a very big area with its center, St Vitus Cathedral.

This one is called St John who was the secret confessor of the Queen of Bohemia. When the King asked him to spill whatever confessions that the Queen had told him, he refused to tell the King and as a result, he was thrown to the river from Charles Bridge. Nowadays people come and will go touch St John statue and make a wish, hoping that wish will be granted.

This is the majestic St Vitus Cathedral.
This picture below was taken when we went up to one side of the Charles bridge tower, looking over Prague Castle and the rest of Charles Bridge. Pretty amazing view I must say :)

This is..Prague city from top of Petrin Hill. We climbed up the hill ok. It was tiring but it was good :)

This is..Prague local delicacy- dumplings. Looks yucky on picture but it taste fine. Yes they call the white bread thingy as the dumplings which taste good if you have one or two. But after the third one, I really felt like vomitting :P

Overall,
I think Prague is one beautiful city. It's not too busy or too big a city and I love the Gothic style buildings. I love the walks on the narrow cobbled alleyways between buildings. I enjoyed listening to the history and ghost stories of Prague from our tour guides.

Though if you have been traveling to other European cities you might notice that some parts of these cities are rather similar to the other or should I say, typical European-style cities.

xxx

WHY?

2009-04-06T01:45:00.006+08:00

Why..
Why does the Sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world ...

Is it?
Well it is for me if I don't get my butt off to work!
Final exams and coursework deadline are looming..what do I do about it??
Membuang masa dengan kerja2 yang tidak berfaedah... :S
Oh come on! It's my very very the final exam..

Haih..

Why am I so damn lazy?? Why do I keep on procrastinating??

Ok maybe I don't feel the pressure just yet..still on holiday mood..
I GOTTA wake UP!
Slap my face..slap my face.. who wants to help me slap my face?

xxx

I am so damn ganas

2009-04-03T22:00:00.012+08:00

I just came back from Prague two days ago. Prague was great! However I am not going to write you stories from Prague just yet, perhaps in a couple of days.

Arrived Bath at about 6pm on April 2nd. (Woah it's April already!) I was damn exhausted from the coach ride from London which was exceptionally long.. :S

The only thing that I wanted to do as I threw myself on my comfy bed was to talk to baby. But it was 6-ish and it would be 1am in Malaysia. He must be sleeping I thought. I didn't want to disturb his sleep. So I decided to wait until 11pm. (Msia is 7 hours ahead of GMT after the Daylight Savings)

When I called him I was so happy to listen to his voice. But he continuously said hello..helllo..sayang..sayang for a couple times before I realized that he couldn't hear my voice from the other side. Arghh... Stupid mic or Skype or whatever fault that was.

I was complaining and accusing him for being ignorant for not checking his mic before I came back from Prague. Well.. actually he had problem with his internet for quite a while now and the internet was fixed just before I left for Prague! So of course I've been waiting to come back so that I could talk to him and see his face again. My complaining ended up with me getting furiously angrrrry..

So what did I do when I got angry,
I smashed up my own headset on my desk and threw it on the floor. (as a sign of frustration)
The outcome?
I broke my mic's cover. Am I so damn stupid or what??

Luckily the mic is still working though it is without the cover now. When I talked to him the day after, I couldn't stop saying how stupid I was to do that. Him, being so used to my temper, laughed it all out on me. In the end we both laughed together about that whole thing with 'me-getting-crazily-angry'. I have no idea how he managed to tolerate with all my madness all these while. Probably he just love me too much :D I'm sorry syg :S

Nah..here's my mic. I'm sorry mic, you have been faithful to me but I have treated you so badly. Am gonna treat you nicely from now on.

xxx

An insight of someone who just turned 23

2009-03-25T08:07:00.023+08:00

It seemed inappropriate to not write anything here as I turned another year older.

So here it is.

First of all I thank God for giving me another year to live.
Yes.. I am officially 23. No longer a favourite number to me I must say. Unless if you relate it to Nathan Scott from One Tree Hill. If you know what I mean.

This year, my birthday wish is to get married, to be a good housewife (or home maker they call it) and to have babies.. HAHA..Im not kidding. Like seriously, how I wish we are back to the old times when a woman's greatest achievement is TO BE MARRIED. As conservative as it may sound, it is (to me) one of the greatest things to happen in any woman's lives.

However it looked as if it is untimely to have this thought now that we are living in this century of time where the world is money-driven. I need to keep in pace or else I would be left behind.

Sigh..

Anyway..

Happy 23rd Abby

Life goes on..

xxx

Rise bright and shine darlings..

2009-03-22T17:57:00.023+08:00

Spring break is a week away. Three weeks of holidays! Weee~~
I hope I won't treat it as an "all play and no work" break as I have coursework and studying to do!

Plans for the break - off to Prague in Czech Rebublic for four days. Can't wait!
But looking at Prague's weather forecast for next week..It's rather disappointing I must say.
Showers, little snow, cloudy days with temperatures below 10'C!!
You gotta be kidding me @_@
How is it possible that the UK is having warmer weather than Czech??

(Caution.. I am going to talk about the weather.. again..for the hundredth times..bare with me haha!)

You know how I have been bragging about the stunning weather in Bath lately :P

Yes..yes it's amazing!
Believe it or not, nowadays I wake up very early in the morning so that I could catch a glimpse of the Sun as early as I could. With the Sun rising at about six in the morning, I just couldn't waste my sunny mornings by sleeping.. :)

I also believe this has something to do with how our body reacts towards sunlight and darkness. (i.e your body says "go to sleep!" when it's dark and says "Wake up!" when it's bright.)

Hehe..

Human beings are 'light-sensitive' and 'temperamental'! Literally!

I hope the weather in Prague will improve when we get there next week.

In the mean time, have a great Sunday people!

xxx

Alasan untuk tidak menelaah pelajaran

2009-03-20T08:36:00.008+08:00

Di kala musim sejuk datang menyelubungi hari-hari, aku sering saja memberitahu diri "Eh.. sejuk sangat la, macam mana mahu study ni? Otak pun macam dah nak beku dah, jari-jemari pun terasa keras semacam, pegang pen pun tak larat dah. Tak payah la study."

Lalu kutinggalkan nota-nota berselerakan di atas meja lalu menuju ke katilku yang empuk berselimutkan duvet yang tak terkata selesanya.
Dengan siang yang pendek disertai dengan malam yang memanjang, aku selalu sahaja mengajak diriku untuk dibuai mimpi-mimpi yang indah. Maklumlah kalau dah malam..tidurlah..

Di kala musim bunga datang menjelma, lain pula ceritanya. Sebenarnya cerita tak lah lain sangat, cuma alasan saja yang berbeza.
Di samping bunga-bunga cantik yang semakin ketara dilihat kini, musim bunga membawa bersamanya cahaya matahari untuk menyinari alam.
Ketika aku duduk di dalam library dengan tujuan untuk menelaah, mataku sering sahaja memandang ke luar tingkap, memandang ke arah padang rumput yang disinari sang suria.
Lalu kuberkata kepada diri sendiri. "Eh, cuaca sangat bagus lah, ada matahari! Bosan lah kalau duduk saja di library, nak pergi santai-santailah."
Seperti kebanyakan yang lain aku juga tidak mahu ketinggalan daripada melakukan aktiviti mereka yang popular iaitu bersantai di padang nun hijau dan 'menjemurkan badan'.
Sungguh nyaman rasanya..

Begitulah kisahnya,
Kalau beginilah setiap hari, bila pula aku nak menelaah?

xxx

Hari ni dah masuk empat tahun la..

2009-03-15T16:08:00.004+08:00

Eh..eh..

Betul kah? Empat tahun dah?
Seperti baru semalam semuanya bermula..

Sehingga kini.. aku masih di sini dan kau di sana..
Macam-macam sudah dilalui..diharungi..
Ada ketika kita ketawa..
Tapi ada juga hari yang dilalui dengan titisan airmata..
Air mata sedih atau gembira..
Entahlah..
Semuanya ada..

Biar apa pun..
Pengalaman-pengalaman itu banyak mengajar diri aku dan kau..
Banyak mendewasakan diri..
Membuatkan aku dan kau faham..itu dan ini..
Betul kan?

Biar apa pun..
Aku nantikan saat itu..
Aku harap tidak ada lagi kau di sana dan aku di sini..
Kerana yang aku impikan..
Kita bersama-sama di sana..

Selamat Ulangtahun Kita yang Ke-4 sayangku..

*Photo by mossipy on Flickr

Falling in love with these...

2009-03-14T15:53:00.016+08:00

What is this with me and weddings nowadays..
All I could say is that my favourite pastime these days is to look at wedding pictures and video clips!

From Jason Magbanua's wedding videos to Anna-Rina's and Louis Pang's wedding portraits and photographs..
These people really take grrrrrrreat photographs and footage.
Every picture looks lovely. Sometimes I don't even notice that I'm actually smiling while looking at these pictures :) Believe me it's not just any smile..it's the "wow-this-gives-me -inspiration!" kinda smile..
(And not that I even know any of those people in the pics!)
All these just make me dream and dream of THE DAY..

Look at these..Ain't they gorgeous?

Are you smiling now?? :)
Baby!! Can't wait for ours!! *dream..dream......*

Note: All photos are published with reference to Louis Pang's and Anna-Rina's web blogs.
First six photographs obtained from Louis Pang, last two by Anna-Rina
xxx

Support Earth Hour

2009-03-13T02:56:00.003+08:00

Hey guys,
"This is the world's first global election between Earth and global warming"
If you love the Earth, show your support by switching off your lights for an hour on the 28th March 2009 @ 8.30pm

Let's vote for Earth!!

For more information, visit http://www.earthhour.org

Personality test

2009-03-08T16:35:00.027+08:00

Was blog hopping last night and saw this personality test linked by Jenet. So in a bid to procrastinate from finishing my work :P I did the test and here is the result!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
(Hmm I agree on me being straightforward. On many occasions I would say things right to your face. It's no surprise that some people thought I intended to 'kenakan' these people though I didn't mean to.. but I don't think people would like me for this..would they?)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
(Right baby can be serious, is smart and determined of course, but he's good looking too :P)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
(Oh yeah..I turned down his 'offer' at first because I wasn't quite ready and I didn't know him that well yet. After a few months of getting to know him 'as friends', I finally accepted him. - Good thing he waited!)

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
(Err.. I didn't have plenty of dates though I had several crushes :P Someone told me once that I can be flirtatious when approaching guys so 'sensible tactics' there might make sense to it.)

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
(Yes I want to start working and earn my own money (now I makan duit Gov for free!). However I wouldn't agree to education being less important. I would say education and being out there in the real world are equally important. Wouldn't it be ironic for me as a future teacher to spread the idea to my future students that education is not that important?? )

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(Quite true this one. I might be one of those 'easily satisfied' kind of people. Considering my future career prospect venturing into the teaching profession - an occupation with steady income plus my expectation of teaching as something that I would enjoy doing. So yeah I'm kinda contented with that.)

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
(Hehe I might have some doubts in me at times. But yeah I'll be courageous!)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
(Hmm this is true. I don't like to be in a position in which I don't have any control of. I like for things to be in order, to be in a state where I want it to be (wah bossy nya))

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(Haha..I'm going to agree with this. People ask for my advice as a matter of fact! I can say I'm quite mature and reasonable when dealing with stuffs. Oh dilemma, my heart needs to solve it huh..Ok..this is a realization that I still need a thorough understanding of myself)

This test is fun!
I actually think that it gives me quite an accurate parameter of myself.
If you would like to try it click here.
xxx

Time passes so fast!

2009-03-07T17:27:00.004+08:00

My my...it's March!
Nah I don't mean to brag about the month.
Ya know.. March being my month and everything..if you know what I mean :P
But seriously, pejam celik pejam celik..
I can't believe that I have approximately another three months before my final semester ends and approximately four months to leave UK!

Wah..has it really been three years since I first step into this country??
Oh my..

So much as I like the idea of looking forward to what's going to happen in the near future and whatever changes that may take place in my life..
Part of me would like to think that nothing much is going to change.. I hope..
Because I love being who I am now..
xxx

Spring..spring

2009-03-06T05:08:00.007+08:00

Ahhh...I could finally feel bits of the sunny spells.

Spring..my favourite season..
I have been anticipating you.. Please come..

I had enough of the winter cold.
Did I hear you say snow??
No!!
Snow please don't come again.
For you are welcome amidst the winter season but it's March now..
it's time for you to go to your hiding place and make the way for the sun, flowers and the warm weather.
Winter..Away you be gone!!

I can't wait to have that long walk under the shines of the mighty Sun.
I can't wait to lie my back on the green grass looking over a picturesque view of the unspoiled clear blue sky.
I can't wait to scent the smells of flowers blossoming.

Let there be sunshine everyday from now on..
Because sunny days would definitely make my days an even brighter ones.

xxx

The end of the world?

2009-03-03T07:11:00.006+08:00

Today in Nonlinear Dynamics & Chaos class..
My lecturer, Prof. Viktor Galaktionov said
"Year 2007 was the high peak of human populations on earth. The growth has now steadied (steady growth). If something has gone wrong with the dynamical systems on earth and human populations continue to grow vigorously today, it would probably mark the end of civilizations. "

Meaning...dynamical systems on earth will become CHAOTIC => DISASTER

Everyone in class were completely in awe.
xxx

My mimpi and me drooling over Jason Statham's body!

2009-02-28T18:46:00.022+08:00

Announcement:
[Okay..I'm actually overwhelmed by tags from fellow bloggers. Was planning to complete them this morning..however since it has been so long since they tagged me and I didn't save them as draft in the first place..I couldn't find the tags in their blogs! (or..maybe i was too lazy to search for them..but I did search for a bit..but unsuccessful :S )
So..I shall not be able to complete them..
Forgive me!]

Okay2..
So I had the weirdest dream last night. Okay maybe not the weirdest la because I know I had even weirder one before. (so why did I write 'weirdest' if it is not the weirdest? Right this is a question not for any of you to answer. I'm asking myself and my writing skill on the use of superlative words..ok enough)
Well all my dreams are always very weird actually. All seemed illogical to be exact (at least for the dreams that I could remember)
Last night I dreamt about me joining a boxing competition. I couldn't quite remember the details though. You know how dreams are always very blurry..
All I could remember is that I definitely had fun kicking and punching someone's ass..and stomach! hahahaha...

I guess the reason why I had this dream is because last night me and housemates were watching Transporter 3. (you know how dreams are sometimes in connection to what you did before you go to sleep).
So yeah Transporter 3..My goodness Jason Statham's body damn SEXXXXXY! With his SEXXXXXY voice..awww...
Seriously man..watching him fight in the movie with his clothes off..showing all the strong muscles he owns..his six packs..muscly arms and brawny backs..drool drool..
(Baby why you don't have six packs ??)
I wish I could caress Mr Statham's sturdy chest..and lick it?
Okay2 I gotta stop with this horniness! (Perhaps at this point you'll say..this girl damn 'gatal' la hahaha..well you can say all you want..I don't care! :)

Overall the movie was just alright. The effects on most of the fighting and action scenes were quite terrible though. Very confusing and memeningkan! But it was definitely attention-grabbing. (With Mr Statham fighting in it..of course la exciting)
Also there were quite a number of very hackneyed + lame phrases and actions. We were like.. wth???
But it's ok la..the good-looking-ness of Mr Statham is enough to compensate all that :D

You should go watch it..but if you think it sucks, don't blame me because I'm not some damn shit movie reviewer. Hahaha...
xxx

PMS-ing & I love you mummy & daddy..and baby

2009-02-27T03:24:00.016+08:00

My breasts are swelling.
I feel bloated.
I'm having mood swings.
etc etc
Yes..I'm PMS-ing. My period is due to visit in a few days. (and I'm telling it to everybody haha!) During this period of time, I see morons everywhere and feel like giving each and everyone of them a slap on the face. Okay maybe not that mean la.
But before I let 'it' conquer me.. I better channel all my 'garangness' to another 'less-abusive' PMS symptoms I'm having that is.. my uncontrollable 'horniness'.
The only person who can help me get through this is my baby.
My..my..I can tell you my baby is enjoying this moment very very much :P

I have to call him everyday in order to fulfill my _________ desires. (note it's not as 'dirty' as you might think okay, I'm just 'appearing' horny :P )

haha..
no la I actually call him everyday be it Pms-ing or not. Do you know that I'm actually his alarm clock? I wake him up everyday at about 6am Msia time. Then we'll talk for about half an hour before he is off to work. Most of the time I'll end up feeling very sleepy by the end of our conversations then fell asleep. So that's how I go to sleep every night. Sometimes still with my headset on.
Baby's voice so comforting la..

On another story, I had had three missed calls from my sis last night. Called her back in the morning and she said "Call Dad he wants to talk you." She didn't explain further cause she had to go somewhere. It scared me a bit because it sounded like an emergency or something that I really need to call home but I had to go to uni early this morning so I didn't call back home right after that.
When I finally called back home after my morning lectures, It turned out that Dad just wanted to talk to me and ask how am I doing here. He said he tried to call me but couldn't get through.
Daddy misses me oh. He said long time didn't hear my voice wor :') I'm so touched.

So we talked for about 20 minutes and actually I was already running out of minutes . (I was using my mobile to call)
I realized that I didn't call home for almost three weeks already.

Did you notice? I mentioned earlier that I call baby everyday but I rarely call home. Such a terrible daughter I am :S
Well actually baby always ask me to call my parents. It's just that sometimes I feel that I don't have anything to talk to them hence the decision not to make that call :S
Bad..bad..

Okay. I shall change. I shall call them and kacau them more often from now on.
xxx

Our duet..

2009-02-22T20:34:00.011+08:00

After some continuous persuasions from KH, I decided to join forces with him for the ChinaRen Karaoke Competition by singing a duet.
Went for audition last Wednesday, still haven't got any reply until today. We assumed that we didn't get in to the final then.. (Sad or relief?? :P)

Guess what song we auditioned for? "Aku dan Dirimu" by Indonesians Ari Lasso and Bunga Citra Lestari :) Actually we were the only group singing a foreign language song :P (foreign to them i mean). Mostly sang in Mandarin or Cantonese with a few singing English songs. Also, during the audition all were required to sing without any background music or instruments.

And... We were the first one to sing out of about 30 odd participants! Haih.. Talking about me and my unlucky hands which drew the lots.
Look at our nervous faces
Nah.. we posed only la that :P

Singing in front of so many others especially in a competition weren't as nerve wracking as I thought it would be. In fact, I had fun! Thank you KH for all the efforts in getting me into this lol!

Here is a video clip of the audition :)

xxx

V-Day Sushi

2009-02-21T16:54:00.006+08:00

It was Valentine's Day. Though boyfriend was not here to celebrate together-gether, I have lovely friends around me to celebrate it with...:P

There's nothing more exciting that having our stomachs filled with good food on V-Day haha! So we decided to try that sushi place in the city. Well actually I went there twice before once with Hajar and the other one was with Dzaquan. I remember how tasty the food was.

My friends wanted to try it and as I expected..they loved it too!

Yeekee and Singyeen

This is Charmaine (Yeekee's sis) and bf Huan Chien

Kimhong with his obento

Me and Yeekee

Edwin and Kimhong

The food tasted so delicious I didn't even remember to snap proper pictures of them :P

The aftermath

Happy~
Thanks Edwin who paid for the food.

And also..thank you Kim Hong for the Valentine's Rose and cards. So sweet of you. Muakk :)

xxx

The not so happening exams result..

2009-02-20T09:50:00.014+08:00

Okay..so my 3rd year of sem 1 exam result just came out today. Looks like I'm repeating my very 'glorious' tradition of 'excellent' record of scores since previous semesters..
Yeah rrrrrrrright...
I'm scaled at a 34% (failed) for my knowledge on MA30041-Metric Spaces. (Oh pity Metric Spaces..I thought I knew you better than a mere 34%)
Amazingly..I scored quite well (not so well la) for another 'die-hard I very sure I'll fail paper' MA30039-Differential Geometry of Curves & Surfaces..
Fair enough..
(My other papers' marks are to remained confidential)

Haih...Shall work harder for that last lap !!!

xxx

Bye2 winter..

2009-02-15T19:39:00.022+08:00

Wah.. temperature these days have finally gone back up. Thank goodness. At time of writing it's about 8'C outside. Which is good enough d lor.. No more below takat beku yay!
But, I actually missed the snow (not the cold temperature though)

The UK suffered/enjoyed a pretty unusual weather conditions last week when super cold winter arrived with SNOWSTORM! My uni had to be closed down for two days (5-6th February 2009) because of the dangerous icy conditions (walking on icy surface is very slippery you know). So we actually had two days of 'holidays' :) Thanks to my uni which is situated up the hill which makes it impossible for vehicles to drive up there.

I mentioned unusual weather conditions because it never really snow that heavily or lengthily here and the temperature had never really reached below -10'C since 14 years ago if I'm not mistaken. Ever since I came here two years ago it snowed only one or two days in February in which the snow came at night and melted at noon the very next day . But what we had this year was almost a week of snow! :)

So with no classes to attend during the 2-day 'holidays', my friends and Idetoured from the route to uni, to the route of untouched snow in the city.

Oh..that's me lying on the snow btw.
If you are wondering how it feels like touching the snow..well it's COLD! hehe..it feels like lots and lots of cotton wool but snow is wet la of course. You know ice that is formed in the fridge (not the hard one), the one hancur2 one, yeah those are like snow la..:P

It was really really beautiful. I feel so lucky to be able to experience the unusual thick soft snow this year since it is my final year here.

Look at this, doesn't this look just like heaven?

If you think that only us who are 'jakun'. Think again..lol.. They (orang putih) are also jakun with snow la..:D

It was really fun. Everyone joined to play with the snow. Snowball fight is of course a must. Lying on the snow making butterfly effect is also popular. Others include building snowman and also some other 'sculptures' while some even tried to sledge and snowboard!! Fun ler :)

These people below didn't really snowboard/sledge or whatever you call these :P
(posed only)
While this one below, hmm I have no idea what they were doing..

While some tried to show their 'kekuataness'. Like these people..

It was fun. The view was scenic.
It was a week of white beautiful snow, beautiful days..
I shall never forget that..ever..

xxx

Aku dan Dirimu

2009-02-14T17:26:00.006+08:00

This is a song sang by Indonesian Ari Lasso and Bunga Citra Lestari.
I love it!
I couldn't stop picturing myself singing it duet with my future husband on our wedding day everytime I listen to it :P

xxx

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-13T08:19:00.015+08:00

This date 14th February, a day we called Valentine's day.

I'm not gonna go over as to how or why Valentine's day is associated with all the romantic fuss.

And no..I don't hate Valentine's Day.

In fact, I love Valentine's Day.

To those people who lived centuries ago and who were responsible in making this a special day,
I thank you.
Thank you for creating a day in honour of LOVE.

What I like about Valentine's Day is the practicality of it.

It gives lovers a special day where they can express their love in a more exceptional kind. To make that extra effort for something more romantic.
I condemn you if you say that "everyday is Valentine's day". It is most certainly not.
Of course..you should express your love to your loved ones everyday but on Valentine's day, all those love words and gestures should become more..unique.

Valentine's day also gives an opportunity for lovers to refresh their love especially for couples who are already married for several years. Well you see, it is understood that most married couples with children no longer show affections to each other as much as when they were young. Then we have this V-Day at our disposal. Voila! Just perfect to revive that long lost romance.

So what do you do on Valentine's day?

Most common one is to present bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolates. Not forgetting Valentine's Day cards. Many will also have candle light dinner in restaurants. Some will go for that romantic weekend trip to an exotic island while some just spend more 'quality' time together at home..etc etc
"Quality" can mean so much you see :P

Or.. do you know what is even more exciting??
Have a wild sex at the beach!
Okay2..maybe not. Well if you want to..go to beaches with no kids please.

Okay now I think I sounded like some people writing on a column about "How to spend your V-Day?"

Truth be told, I HAVE NEVER CELEBRATED VALENTINE'S DAY WITH MY BOYFRIEND!!

Sad..sad case isn't it. Well the thing is when we started our relationship as a couple, I was already away from him to do IB. Four years down the road, I am still away. Or should I say I am now a further THOUSAND MILES AWAY from him. So yeah, I have been on a Long Distance Relationship (LDR) for almost four years now.

It was hard at first but we are used to it now. You know, being away. Okay2 I'm not going to talk about my LDR for now. It's Valentine's Day for god sake.

Of course I wished for him to be here with me now. What more on Valentine's Day.
I would like for him to kiss me and hug me tightly in his arms..argh!! Baby I miss you!!!

Sigh~

Nah..baby this is for you:

On this Valentine's Day, I want to say how grateful I am to have you in my life.
Thank you for loving me, showering me with all your kindness and sweetness.
Thank you for all the patience you have in me. I know I complain a lot :P Nevertheless you are always there to listen to my every whining.
Thank you for all the things that you have taught me.
Thank you for giving me the chance to love and be loved which is all wonderful.
Sorry if I ever hurt you in any ways..but I know you don't mind because you know I sayang you kan hehe :P
You are a part of me now so you cannot run away from me okay.
(I know you won't because I know you sayang me too :P)
I love you sayang. Happy Valentine's Day.

Nah.. I'm sending my love to you all the way from UK. Emmmmmmuuuuahhhhh :-*

xxx

The night when a thief wandered around our house

2009-02-08T23:19:00.023+08:00

Sunday, 8th February 2009

I was already fast asleep. In the wee hours of the morning at about 3.45am I woke up to go to the toilet. I noticed Yeekee's bedroom light was on and I also noticed bright light coming from downstairs. So I peeked from the side of the wall upstairs and saw Kim Hong's bedroom light was switched on. (Kim Hong's room is downstairs)

Well, Kim Hong went away for the weekend to Warwick so I was wondering why was his light on? I have these three thoughts in my mind.
First, probably KH forgot to off his light before he left on early Saturday morning
Second, he's probably home!
Third, there's probably someone in the house!
But I pushed that thought to the back of my mind.

I actually thought of going downstairs to off the light but I didn't so I went back to my room and was about to continue sleeping when I heard Yeekee's door opened and she shouted:
"Abby ! there's a kwai lo in the house!!"
(you know what kwai lo means right? It means 'orang putih')

I had the shock of my life man I tell you.
I gasped as I opened my door and told YK that I actually saw the light was on downstairs.

It turned out that the thief actually went up to YK's room and opened her door! Slowly sumore! The funny thing was, YK said they looked at each other for a few seconds before the thief ran down the stairs. This was the moment when YK shouted.

Singyeen came out from the room when she heard our noises. YK was thinking of going downstairs to check and I suggested we bring something to protect ourselves. Badminton rackets that is. But we were too scared to go down because we were afraid that he might still be there and he could hurt us. So we didn't and in the end we went to my room and locked ourselves inside (My room is the only one with locks on the door) and YK called the police.

We were sooooo scared.

Two policemen came a few minutes later (Thank God) and searched the house and the surrounding to check whether he was still around. Well, he wasn't.
At first the police thought this person might just be some drunken or random people who walked in to the wrong house. Because according to the police a thief usually do not switch on main light s and use a torch light instead. Also no door or window has the sign that it was broken into.

Well, we could have actually 'attracted' this person by not closing the front or back door properly. Maybe the door was left ajar. We are not sure.

However after that we noticed KH's laptop was gone. So it turned out that it was a theft after all.

But really.. this thief is a bit weird. We think that he assumed the house was empty which explained him walking around in the house switching on lights, opened the store room door, went to the kitchen and opened YK's door which was the only room with lights on!
Was he just too curious?? I have no idea.

After that a third policeman came and interviewed YK - the witness of the crime! When he left, all three of us stayed in my room that night feeling unsafe, insecured.

This morning, A CSI came with his two suitcases into the house to investigate. I saw one of the suitcases with all these tools like brushes and stuffs. (It's just like on TV! I love CSI Miami :P) He took pictures and fingerprints off the doors and also took our fingerprints. Actually it wasn't just fingerprints but also our palms.

I didn't take this pic when the CSI was around ok, this form was left in the house for KH to print his fingers on and to be submitted to Bath police station

He was really friendly which I'm really thankful for after last night's shock. Having him around kinda ease the traumatization we suffered. (Well, I'm probably exagerating a bit :P) But hey I was really shaking last night OK.

I would say, the calmest one was YK ( she herself doesn't understand why she was so calm when she first "locked eyes" with the thief) lol.
The most terrified one was SY.

Sigh~
It was an incident that I never thought I would experienced.
It was a hard lesson for all of us.
That is, to be careful all the time and CLOSE and LOCK the DOORS PROPERLY.

Actually there were a couple of times when we left the front door opened. Well not on purpose of course. The thing is our door is a bit problematic too because we need to really slam it to close it.

All this while I thought, since we are staying in a terrace house it would only be 'very very very the most unluckiest' day only that this one house would be burgled. (Thief will have to choose from many many houses you see, probablity that my house would be burgled would be low :S)

However, last night it turned out that 'the very unluckiest' house was our house.

People always say (or maybe just me) : "Nah..that won't happen to me.."
But what happened last night proved otherwise. Incidents can happen to anyone no matter how low or high the chances are. Last night also reminded us how careless we could be. Something worse could have happened last night but thank God we are all safe.~

Please be careful people.

xxx

Winter trip to Portugal : Part III - Porto

2009-01-30T05:20:00.004+08:00

Okay..there's actually another sequel to my Portugal trip. Here it is.
Porto- Land of the Port Wines.

24th December 2008
Arrived Porto at about 8pm from Lisbon. The city was quiet. Shops were all closed. Why? It's Christmas eve! Seriously, it was a mistake to be traveling on Christmas eve or Christmas day. Whilst many went back to their hometown to celebrate Christmas with family, we got stucked in a 'dead' city. Guess what, me and my friends ended up having kebab for 'Christmas dinner' because that was the only nearest shop that was open that night.

Oh yeah..I gotta tell ya this. Our hostel sucks. The room was cold and there was a portable heater that was not functioning. So we asked the receptionist ( a guy and was the only one working that night) to provide us with a heater that actually works. So he came, helped us to plug it onto the wall while he bent down. Then suddenly, he said he couldn't straightened his back, he couldn't move.

I was with Limei in that room. We got scared for a moment because after all there were only two of us girls with that guy. We were thinking was this some kind of trap to 'harm' us. Just being cautious.
He tried to get himself up for a few times but failed so he asked one of us to help him..by STEPPING ON HIS STOMACH!!! He said his therapist was a couple times heavier than any one of us.

Limei tried to stand on him but she couldn't actually do it because she was scared she would hurt him. So there I was, offering myself to step on a man :P
I asked him the spot I should be standing on and he pointed his stomach. Well he was kinda fat. So I stepped on his stomach carefully. I could feel his belly fats..eww~
He said I needed to put more pressure so I put on my full weight on his stomach.
Amazingly, after a few seconds he actually managed to get himself up. He thanked and explained that he actually got into an accident with his bike a few weeks before so he was still undergoing therapy.

He left the room leaving Limei and I looking at each other with disbelief to what just happened.
Okay that's pretty much what happened on the first night.

Christmas day: we had a stroll around the city. Though no shops were opened and streets were mostly quiet, Porto's scenery was enough to make all of us contented.

As usual, days in Portugal were very warm and sunny including Porto. Sitting along Duoro river enjoying the majestic view was really one great experience. Serene..yeah that's just a perfect word to describe such tranquility.

Porto's view at night

If Lisbon is popular with its egg tart, then Porto is famous for its Port Wines, Porto's primary export. Seriously man, Porto's port wines were the best wine I ever tasted. We managed to visit one of the many Port Wine museums in Vila Nova de Gaia on the day after Christmas. We joined a guided tour and learned a lot about the production of port wines. By the end of the tour, we had a free wine tasting which turned out to be a very 'fun' one for some :P
Each of us got to taste three types of port wines. After sipping some, I felt very very tipsy. I was the first one to have the 'reaction' from the wines, then Limei followed. :P
Everyone started to worry, especially Neo as he doesn't drink. I recovered quite fast though.

With our guide Mr Fernandes

The free wine tasting

Another point to note, it was clearly a mistake to be drinking alcohol with empty stomach. Actually I presumed that was the reason why the reaction of the wines acted so fast in my body :P Oh yeah, I bought two bottles of port wines.

After the wine tasting, my friends and I headed to a local restaurant and tried Franceschina - the popular Porto's dish. It had a spicy taste with beef, ham and cheese.

In one of the restaurant in Porto. Notice the ceiling? those are small Espresso cups.

Porto's local delicacy. 'Franceschina'

At the end of the day, we ended our trip and headed back to the UK.
That's about it my story from Porto.

With that, I marked the end of my travel journal to Portugal with plenty of beautiful memories to be remembered.

xxx

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2009-01-28T02:44:00.009+08:00

May the year of the Ox brings a more prosperous year and happiness all year round.

Want to know how I spent the Niu year?

I had Chinese food
I PosedPut on a new red top & Yeekee's not red but new top
Potluck
Posed with family in Bath
Ate Ba Kua
Played Mahjong

Not bad la hor..
xxx

I am exams free..

2009-01-23T01:30:00.005+08:00

Finally...

After almost a month of suffering, I could finally declare myself 'exams FREE'...
What a stressful and tiring month.. :(
After this, another semester to go then I'm done.
I don't know what to say about my papers..I shall just wait and see for the results..

This morning before my last paper started, I was feeling rather unwell. I had diarrhea and felt like vomiting. I went for the loo three times and it was about twenty over minutes before my paper was scheduled to start. I got nervous. It was something like morning sickness pregnant women have. Well not that I ever got pregnant or anything :P But I guess that's exactly what morning sickness will feel like. Geez...
Fortunately I got rid of the nauseousness after a few times of vomiting the 'non-existent' vomit.
I don't know. It could be something that I ate.
It could as well be the stress that I accumulated over the past few weeks of exams and revisions, which finally got to burst out today. Phew...~

As the clock strike 11.30am this morning..I could hear myself shouting yahOOOO!!!!
I'm so glad that it's over.
Seriously man, the exams had really got deep into my nerves..

So how do I celebrate the end of exams?
.
.
.
SHOPPING!! :)
Oh yes...shopping is the best therapy ever. Well for me at least :)
Jane Norman was having up to 70% discount on selected items. So I bought a red tube-top and a red dress. GBP8.07 & 11.01 respectively..cheap right :)
Why red? Next week Chinese New Year laa...Must have something red right..
people say barulah ada 'ong' kan :)
I also bought two tops from H&M and new panties from M&S..Yay!!...:P

My purchase :)

xxx

Foooooooooolishneeesssssssssss................

2009-01-16T01:45:00.015+08:00

I was revising on Optimization Methods of Operational Research..
Oh yes..that is one long title isn't it..

I was trying to find a basic feasible solution to a system of linear programming problem.
After some pretty long and painful calculations using the Simplex Algorithm, again..a name so ironic for what it actually does..
I finally came down to having these answers
x1= 15/3
x2= 0 =x4
x3= 2

And the model answer was (x1,x2,x3,x4)=(5,0,2,0)

I was like..what the hell...how did that x1=5 come out???
Where did I do wrong???
Grrrrrrrrr.... ( okay, maybe you've noticed my foolishness up to this point)

I calculated again. Repeating the pain in the ass calculations only to find out I still got the same answer.

Did you see it?
Did you notice what I missed?

15/3 = 5
15/3 = 5
15/3 = 5
15/3 = 5 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

15 divides by 3 is fucking 5!
Wtf..
Someone please tell me why the hell am I soooooooo blind??

Looking at the bright side..I had a thorough practice on my simplex algorithm as a result of this.
xxx

I just found out I got white hair

2009-01-13T06:27:00.018+08:00

This week (and next week) will be a week of maximum level stressssssSSSS...
It's the exam week..
Students started to throng the library as early as eight in the morning.
Some even "stay" in the library for days (thanks to our 24-hour library service ).
Some started to have more and more caffeine every night.
Most will have sleepless nights.
Some started to eat or nibble more often than ever (okay this is probably just me :S)

All these in a bid to absorb as much materials as they could for the exams.

Feeling stress?
Oh definitely YES..
Proof: I just found out that there's a strand of white hair on my head. (There could actually be more than one)

It's normal...isn't it? No..I don't mean the white hair..
I mean Students <=> Exams
They could not be separated.
We just have to live with it.
~~
Can't wait for exams to be over..
Lagi cannot wait for the day I no longer have to worry about exams.

In the mean time..
To all of you who still have the label "STUDENTS" on your forehead..
Study hard & Good luck for your exams..

I'm signing off as I'm going to fight in a battle of "mind-memory challenging/torturing" questions..
Therefore..blog will be on hiatus.
xxx

Loner...me?

2009-01-07T05:41:00.014+08:00

Due to unforeseen circumstances, I started the semester by attending lectures all by myself. I went for tutorial classes alone, had my lunch break alone, went and came back home alone from uni..
(I'm a real loner am I?)
I could go without literally talking to anyone in a (school) day.

Most of the time I study alone,
I shop alone,
I walk alone.

I have been 'practicing' this for over a couple of months and today I realized how much all these have actually become a routine of mine.

A routine that I have learned to adapt.
A routine that I have learned to appreciate and love.

In silence, quietness and solitude
amazingly, I'm no longer bothered by this term called 'loneliness'.

xxx

Quotes of the Day

2009-01-05T17:46:00.002+08:00

Thought of sharing this with you,

"Happiness is always a by-product. It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular. But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness."
- Robertson Davies

Have a nice day people :)

xxx

Winter trip to Portugal - Part II: Lisbon

2009-01-01T19:58:00.021+08:00

22nd December 2008

We arrived at Lisbon in the evening by train from Faro. Lisbon is the capital city of Portugal. We were surprised as soon as we stepped into our accomodation, the Lisbon Lounge Hostel. For only 18euros per night, we got to enjoy a very nicely-designed hostel with a very unique layout. The room was warm, comfy, there were lounges with computers and free internet access too. Oh..and there was a kitchen too which allowed me to indulge in my Double Choca Mocha every night :)

Just chilling in the hostel lounge

The best part was, the hostel arranged a guided tour for us for the next day. And the very very 'bestest' part was, they even organised a Christmas party with FREE Christmas dinner! It was no simple dinner I tell you, it was a complete dinner with a range of appetisers including prawns! Fresh prawns! haha..There were lasagna, fried noodles, rice, chicken, wines etc etc..

23rd December 2008
A sunny warm day.
Our first destination for the guided tour was to a flea market (looks a bit like tamu in Sabah). Together in the tour was a retired British couple, a German couple and a Spanish couple. We were suppose to get a small gift in the market because we were told that we were going to have a present exchanging session later at the Christmas party. Limei and I didn't get anything though. :P

At the flea market

After that, our tour guide took us to this place called 'The Roofs' As the name explains, you can see houses' roof tops from the viewing place. It was really beautiful. Then we went to an open place, they called it 'Terrace' where we had beer and just chill out enjoying the view and the sunshine. This tour in Lisbon was the most unwind tour I've ever experienced. It was so relaxing!

The Roofs. Lisbon castle behind.

Lisbon Trams

Chilling at the terrace

Popular beer in Portugal. I was told, the Brazillian used to make fun of this because 'Bock' means 'blowjob' in their language.

View from the terrace

Lunch time. We had cod fish.
Clockwise from left: Dong, Edmond, Neo, Limei and I

Praca de Comercio

Downtown Lisbon at night

Later at night, we joined others for the Christmas party. Guess what Limei and I bought to exchange presents. Socks! haha..I forgot to take pic of the socks we bought. Mine was green colour with a small bear head on it :P And I got a mug in return..

The Christmas party

Look at the amount of prawns we took. More hidden underneath those salads :)

24th December 2008
We started our day to Belem. We visited the Monument to the Discoverers and the church in Mosteiro Jeronimos which means the Jeronimos Monastery's.

The 25th April bridge

There's a map on the floor showing Portuguese colonies centuries ago

And we saw this

and did this

Monument to the Discoverers

Jeronimos Monastery

Inside the church

Then we searched for the famous Portuguese dessert, the Portuguese egg tart. According to our KMB senior who tried the egg tart before, the Portuguese egg tart reached the level of a 'maximum ganas' egg tart. Which means it's damn good la.

Indeed, it was 'maximum ganas' . The texture was so soft, not too sweet and has crispy crust outside. I've never really eat that much egg tart in Malaysia but according to my friends, the Portuguese egg tart tasted so much better than the one we had at home. It's that when you finished one egg tart you will crave for another one. That good..:)
Oh..I really have to mention this, this restaurant, "Pasteis de Belem" is huge! It even has security guards walking around in the restaurant. To guard the egg tart perhaps :P

Outside the restaurant 'Pasteis de Belem'

The egg tart on display
Our 1st round of egg tart

Cheers from the traveling buddies

In the evening, we took a train to our next destination, Porto.

That's about it from Lisbon.
I really enjoyed my time in Lisbon :)
Would love to eat Portuguese egg tart again :P

xxx

2009 is here!

2008-12-31T17:37:00.014+08:00

Wow..it's New Year's Eve..again..
Time flies isn't it?

This day..31st December 2008
As of writing, Bath's outside temperature is about -3 degree Celsius.
It's frosty, cold, gloomy..I do hope it's going to snow :P
Orang cakap alang-alang ba kan..kalau suda sejuk bawah takat beku..kasi turun la salji baru syok.

View from my bedroom window this morning

Last year I was in Edinburgh, Scotland to celebrate New Year joining thousand others for the Hogmanay Festival.
However, this year I would just probably stay home..nerding perhaps B)

Goodbye 2008..
Welcome 2009..

New Year's Resolutions? (without particular order)
1. Study harder (damn familiar kan...because every year must have this)
2. Go for Sunday Masses
3. Shop less
4. Read more books
5. Reduce belly fats!
6. Be a calmer me..I realized that I had several times lost my temper this year.. (haih..nanti cepat tua la ni)
7. Appreciate my family more
8. Appreciate my friends more
9. Sayang my baby more..( you lucky guy :P)
10. To travel to (at least) Amsterdam and Prague before I leave UK for good
11. To visit all museums in Bath
12. ...

Thank God for all the blessings that you have given to me throughout the year.
Thanks to my family who support me in every ways.
Thanks to all my friends who made my days filled with laughter for without you I would be one lonely creature.
Last but not least, thanks to my D for loving me, who listens to all my complains, who comforts me from afar, who 'tucks' me to sleep every night.

Love every single one of you!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!
May the new year brings you more joy and blessings all year round..
xxx